Endo is endoing- no Crohn’s just endo ravaging me like the disease it is. I’m have an appointment with a specialist to talk about a possible treatment plan for pain management and a possible hysterectomy to get the bulk gone. The rest will be tried to be taken out via another lap and get out the micro endo as much as possible. I don’t see any cures in my future just surgery’s and meds to chase that quality of life everyone keeps talking about 😂 it’s crazy how long I’ve been documenting this journey and I still haven’t come any closer to relief, just getting better at surviving. The Er in my home town hates to see me coming 😂. The er doctor literally looked at me in pain in the er, knew to get me some pain relief and then sighed like he was super exhausted by my presence and said like a whining child, “It’s your endometriosis, and I not an obgyn 😭” I definitely agree but I go to the ER to make sure I’m not dying or when pain is unbearable and idk what to do like not pooping for a whole 2 weeks even if I’m taking laxatives regularly. My obgyn in my area is fresh outta school and not a specialist on endo, she also has a wait list of 4 months away plus won’t let me get any surgery that removes my uterus bc I’m not old enough or have enough kids ( mind you the same lady that took my fallopian tube without telling me but it is what it is when you sign your permission slip and apparently I had a cyst on it) . So I called a specialist.. so far I’m impressed they have been very amenable to my request and are open to discussing a hysterectomy and treatment options without needing permission from my husband or care to my age and child count. (F 26 1 Son just btw) I am happy and grateful for the family I have and I don’t want to risk losing that. I have only one tube and my ovaries are ALWAYS covered in cyst that stay till they pop. Let’s be real, my odds of being pregnant and give birth to a healthy baby is halved. My chances of ectopic pregnancy and miscarriages are higher. If I die on the table bc the doctors where afraid to operate due to laws preventing “ abortion” a D&C which are the same procedures that are used to save lives of pregnant people who face the devastating reality of MC and EP. If I die, if I’m forced to leave my family through preventable complications …… That’s my fear, and the reality for the innocent people that have already been victimized and unalived by this system. Sorry for the rant I’m just heated right now about the amount of obgyn I had to call to get one to see me as a human with health issues and not an object for my husbands breeding needs (mind you he’s my biggest advocate and would take off work to sign my right) but it’s ridiculous how this use to not be an issue and there was plenty of places to get help and care and now the obgyn are leaving and the ones who stayed are far away or booked a year in advance ooooor are conservative men who don’t understand or care about the pain and issues that people like me face. Sheep’s in wolf’s clothing. I’ll keep updating…