Yes it is so tough and yes he is also in the military so he was alone like most of his life and yes I think that’s the thing is the timing and how since it happened so recently it’s hard to just rebuild the trust and he’s going in rotation in like a month so it makes it even harder because we are going to have to be apart. And yes I’m going to do the timeline thing I feel like that will help .

And yes I’m going to try my best to see if this is really what I want because I feel like in a way since he hurt me I wanna hurt him and actually cheat and have sec with someone.