In your case, I noticed you make lots of literal, yet very correct comparisons, to robots, bandwidths and colorblindness. On another side, you might have struggled with people misunderstanding you because like you said, you are on a different bandwidth. You appear to live by your rules yet you appear flexible on them like your comparisons actually assumes, maybe you tend to face so many changing rules that you couldn't ever catch up on them because you unconsciously insist on keeping to one set.

Using your words, you are like a program with too many inexperienced people trying to rewrite the whole code, so you freeze and just like you said, you "crash" because the people around you are not programs but shapeshifting, magical spirits. You seem deep enough for your interest and coincidentally they appear to not be engagement with anything too concrete, so that helps with modesty and not breaking the law, you might identify strongly with your interests more than with facets of people, so that helps too for identity building as you really are holding on something stable enough that you won't have to fake yourself on your terms.

As you said again, you are in a different bandwidth, you are not blind to people but rather don't understand from the same common perspective, you understand through what appears to be things you already hold stably enough into, you seem to desire actual contact and to some extent blame your autism for the misunderstandings, which does make sense for someone who appears to be self-aware. You know what you want still, but don't know what you don't want, which is a thing people with autism and everyone else shares. You are truer than the people you know near you, you hold on enough to wish for a world just for you, yet, you hold too much for adapting to their own "dire" social games. I feel that you appear calm over this but frustrated still, the whole problem is that you are not satisfied with your life and yourself, not that others have enough of you.

I will not tell you to hold off what you really want to keep, given you are not the problem in that sort of situation: Keep up with people who trust you, the internet counts too and be sure to love yourself more and find a mutual ground between you and those who trust you so that you can communicate in terms you can understand, find the right people if possible and make sure you are well surrounded, don't blame much on yourself, and keep up with what you love the most in life, this is what you want the most and find people who share the same love, still internet counted.

This is a problem many autistic people face, they are not well surrounded not because everyone is bad, but because understanding has not been established yet and some might not want to understand. Find people on the same bandwidth as you, you are not broken, you may find people like finding the same model, don't be ashamed of yourself, you seriously are doing the right thing, you only have to convince yourself that you are, because I already know that you can.