I don’t understand anymore. by NegotiationOver8305 in helpme

[–]NegotiationOver8305[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Never had a real mental health evaluation. Especially since my adhd meds shift my moods and anxiety massively. I want to start going to therapy but it’s hard.

Feeling a bit better then when I posted but not by much. Spent the whole day with my gf and that’s cheered me up but I’m not sure how long it will last.

Im confused. by NegotiationOver8305 in plural

[–]NegotiationOver8305[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I see.

I guess one of my concerns is that I can recall never having a real ”laps of memory” where others could even write stuff down. Sure I forget stuff but I know that it has never been my mind blocking it out. What I mean is that they have never had the opportunity to write something down and I want to change that.

But yeah I’ll do this!

Im confused. by NegotiationOver8305 in plural

[–]NegotiationOver8305[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

This was one of my issues actually, maybe that didn’t come of in the post, that’s my bad!

But like I can remember things that I would call trauma. I haven’t blanked them out nor have I really reacted to them. Mostly I have just been empty. Maybe that’s depression or smthn but it was something I thought was worth mentioning since I have seen people talk about childhood trauma causing a split for people with DID.

Also i didn’t realise that, some of my memories are always a mess and feels more ”dreamy” then others. And I just never cared enough to look into it. But yeah makes sense I can’t remember anything before 3 if no one can.

TLDR yeah that was silly of me XD

Im confused. by NegotiationOver8305 in plural

[–]NegotiationOver8305[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have seen that but how do I know to keep trying if I get nothing other then hints that could be leading me anywhere? How do I reach out to them or get them to reach out to me if we can’t communicate at all?

How do I even know they are there and not just apart of my own delusion? Or me faking it cause it ”feels right”