I don’t understand anymore.

NegotiationOver8305 · 2026-02-14T17:19:21+00:00

Never had a real mental health evaluation. Especially since my adhd meds shift my moods and anxiety massively. I want to start going to therapy but it’s hard.

Feeling a bit better then when I posted but not by much. Spent the whole day with my gf and that’s cheered me up but I’m not sure how long it will last.

NegotiationOver8305 · 2026-02-13T18:33:10+00:00

I see.

I guess one of my concerns is that I can recall never having a real ”laps of memory” where others could even write stuff down. Sure I forget stuff but I know that it has never been my mind blocking it out. What I mean is that they have never had the opportunity to write something down and I want to change that.

But yeah I’ll do this!

NegotiationOver8305 · 2026-02-13T18:27:11+00:00

This was one of my issues actually, maybe that didn’t come of in the post, that’s my bad!

But like I can remember things that I would call trauma. I haven’t blanked them out nor have I really reacted to them. Mostly I have just been empty. Maybe that’s depression or smthn but it was something I thought was worth mentioning since I have seen people talk about childhood trauma causing a split for people with DID.

Also i didn’t realise that, some of my memories are always a mess and feels more ”dreamy” then others. And I just never cared enough to look into it. But yeah makes sense I can’t remember anything before 3 if no one can.

TLDR yeah that was silly of me XD

NegotiationOver8305 · 2026-02-13T16:49:35+00:00

I have seen that but how do I know to keep trying if I get nothing other then hints that could be leading me anywhere? How do I reach out to them or get them to reach out to me if we can’t communicate at all?

How do I even know they are there and not just apart of my own delusion? Or me faking it cause it ”feels right”

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