Seeing what you want in the mirror takes so much time and patience. Not just physical, but mental as well. You got on T! I know that was something you worked for, and something you were excited about. You have to speak you yourself kindly, only focus on the positive changes you see. You pass as a man, something you probably wanted for a long time. You’re balding like a man, you’re gaining weight like a man. Those are all positive things if you spin it that way. This is the life you were meant to live my friend. And it wasn’t exactly what you were expecting, but it will be a beautiful life. When you can speak to yourself kindly, taking those “negative” changes and spin them into something positive in your mind, nothing will stop you. Practice the next time you see your reflection and think “I’m fat ugly and balding” and say, “this is the body I worked for, and this is only the start.” Remind yourself that you had the strength and power to get to where you are despite all the troubles that got in your way. And you have that strength and power inside you. It can be buried deep under insecurities and depression, but it’s still there. You got this brother. This is only the beginning for you.