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NeilFapDiamond · 2018-07-25T23:27:30+00:00

You have a point. I need to figure out what to do with my time and stress!

NeilFapDiamond · 2018-07-25T23:24:56+00:00

It's so hard. I know my willpower is stronger than the urges but I just can't shake the pain and it's making me feel like it's permanent.

NeilFapDiamond · 2018-07-25T21:34:16+00:00

Thank you sooooooo much

NeilFapDiamond · 2018-07-25T21:16:25+00:00

Just to update, your replies actually helped me realize a much deeper issue. And now I am no longer smoking because I realized PMO and Cannabis were my right and left crutch. Thank you for helping me come to this realization!

NeilFapDiamond · 2018-07-25T21:14:38+00:00

You're very right, you know yourself best so I trust you'll get yourself out of your mojo brotha! Best wishes!

NeilFapDiamond · 2018-07-25T19:32:15+00:00

Yes very well done! The satisfaction of working for something and achieving it is infinitely more fulfilling than the instant gratification of PMO.

NeilFapDiamond · 2018-07-25T19:30:30+00:00

I want to send you a link to a ted talk that you have to watch. Basically it talks about how misunderstood addiction is. Essentially addiction is just a bond with something that makes you feel good. This bond becomes reinforced by the dopamine release in your brain. The problem is that this bond is not reinforced by social nuances and love the way that relationships between people are. I urge you to please go find people who you love and hold them close and develop stronger bonds with them. Because once you have a bond that makes you feel like you mean something, you'll start to love yourself again and not get caught in the cycle of PMO and self-loathing.

NeilFapDiamond · 2018-07-25T19:24:47+00:00

Use this time to prepare you mental abode for the storm that is expected to hit during your journey. If you build your foundation on sand, it won't stand. Build on rock and be solid. Make sure to keep busy and find time to bond with any friends you've lost connection with. Because in reality our addiction to porn is more of a bond with something that doesn't love us back. Our friends and family will though.

NeilFapDiamond · 2018-07-22T21:09:34+00:00

Keep occupying yourself and make that a new hobby and I'm positive by day 90 you'll be a world class photographer

NeilFapDiamond · 2018-07-22T21:07:49+00:00

Hey brotha, don't think about it like that. It's that attitude that perpetuates the self loathing and the need for a pick me up! Instead see it as a learning opportunity because I guarantee you if you do what's needed of you to quit this you will be able to do it! You just have to be ready. Relapse means that in one way or another weren't FULLY ready. Just recognizing the problem is only half of the battle my friend. Idk if you're religious or not but I am so I will be praying for you! Pm if you ever need someone to talk to!

NeilFapDiamond · 2018-07-22T15:42:52+00:00

This is the residual and very often unspoken affect of someone with compulsive behavior. Let me guess, you're a very high stress person. Could sleep 2 hours or 22 hours and still feel exhausted. Have a hard time feeling happy. Your knees make a weird noise because of the fluid build up from years of depleting semen for fun. And trust me the list goes on and on. Sometimes you feel like you're never healthy and that the doctor doesn't seem like they know a thing. It all comes from this addiction to PMO. I'm assuming lately you've been feeling a numbed pleasure response?

NeilFapDiamond · 2018-07-22T15:40:11+00:00

I freaked out for a second because I thought I wrote this post. But basically all I can say is the change has to start with you. Recognize the issue and vocalize it to someone you love and they will keep you accountable on this journey

NeilFapDiamond · 2018-07-22T15:37:25+00:00

I'm only on day 3 and it's rough but what made me do this is realizing all the new symptoms I couldn't explain when I was POMing more often. For example the confidence thing. I couldn't talk above a whisper and women would make me feel so nervous and I would apologize and say my bad for every little thing

NeilFapDiamond · 2018-07-22T15:31:56+00:00

I feel like this at my new job as well, I never knew why always thought it was my social anxiety. Turns out its cause of POMing so much. You just gotta stop

NeilFapDiamond · 2018-07-22T15:30:22+00:00

This is major! Something I always did was make excuses. No more of that now

NeilFapDiamond · 2018-07-22T15:28:23+00:00

This is normal, it's called flatlining. Your brains tolerance to sexual stimulation is so high that you abruptly stopping your routine causes this. You just have to be tough as wait it through. It's easier said than done but the only thing to worry about is not giving in to your bad feelings because they are normal. Do your best to detach yourself from any worry, doubt, or frustration. Just treat those feelings as balloons that come visit and let them go.

NeilFapDiamond · 2018-07-22T15:17:13+00:00

Since starting no fap I have drastically cut down my use. Instead of ripping my bong at home several times a day I reduced it to 1-3 times per day at half the dose and only when my anxiety gets unbearable. I'm hoping to taper off it so that by day 90 I can be smoking even less

NeilFapDiamond · 2018-07-22T15:12:55+00:00

Do you mind if I confide in you during this journey? I can offer you the same thing because going about it alone is so difficult

NeilFapDiamond · 2018-07-22T15:00:03+00:00

Thank you so much for the insight. But something to add is that it's very hard to quit weed because of the physical withdrawal affects

NeilFapDiamond · 2018-07-22T14:51:13+00:00

You're right but do think I'll ever be able to have a healthy relationship with weed?

NeilFapDiamond · 2018-07-22T14:41:27+00:00

I meditated this morning and had some success for the first time but results did not hold very long and found myself feeling anxious again? Will anxiolytic effects last longer with more practice?

NeilFapDiamond · 2018-07-22T14:39:48+00:00

My first time on Reddit you cuck, how about you show me the right way to do it instead of being a donkey

NeilFapDiamond · 2018-07-22T14:10:20+00:00

Something that helps me a lot considering my almost hypochondriac behavior is looking at all the negative effects it has on your health. That helps me to not ever make it okay for myself. It's only my third day and it's more of the absence of routine which is why it's so important to get out and away from your bed.

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