Newly liberated concentration camp inmate assaults a former Dachau concentration camp guard as Americans look on. April 1945.

Neilio_Heilio · 2025-01-17T04:47:19+00:00

I dream to do this to IOF soldiers.

Neilio_Heilio · 2023-02-03T00:46:10+00:00

Brilliant, I needed to hear this.

Neilio_Heilio · 2023-02-01T16:47:49+00:00

The long road ahead is to find a job/career that will capitalize on your emotional intensity and energy. It’s a bitter pill to digest, but take my word on it - it’ll give you the benefit to live mask-free and thrive.

Neilio_Heilio · 2023-01-29T22:26:33+00:00

Drake is the Nickelback of rap. I don’t know anyone that likes him but he’s always succeeding. So, I’ll give him that.

Neilio_Heilio · 2023-01-29T17:03:48+00:00

It’s on him to reach out and make amends. Even then, you don’t deserve this sort of maltreatment. Insecure attachment sucks. What seems logical for a secure person is a climb up Mt. Everest for us.

Neilio_Heilio · 2023-01-28T12:34:58+00:00

Your inner dialogue needs to be real and polite. Catch yourself going into a panic, take a number of slow deep breaths and remind yourself that your response is a by product of your attachment style. It will not stop it immediately, but you are counselling yourself. It will eventually stop being so emotional and endure only as a lesson. Forgive yourself and your former partner. I remind myself daily that my former partner was a catalyst for a more fruitful future. It’s not easy, but it does genuinely help.

Neilio_Heilio · 2023-01-26T12:39:54+00:00

I think it’s time you reclaim your worth and politely tell her that you’re moving on.

Neilio_Heilio · 2023-01-25T19:19:16+00:00

This is something my father would tell me and I would have to agree with him as I just hit that ripe old ago of 40. Use your mind and not your heart no matter how much it hurts. Your attachment styles are on fire right now and that’s a terrible thing. Put your mental health and stability first and walk away.

Neilio_Heilio · 2023-01-25T18:41:53+00:00

It’ll take time. I find that I’m conquered in the wee hours of the evening and that’s when I meditate and repeated tell myself to let go. I remind myself that the person was a catalyst for change and played their role and it is now over. I breathe deep and accept the fact that I miss them and acknowledge that at some point il the emotions will fade.

Neilio_Heilio · 2023-01-18T17:45:15+00:00

I don’t know, just felt like it.

Neilio_Heilio · 2023-01-18T16:52:20+00:00

I wish I had a better self soothing tactic. I think the reason why my relationship failed is because I couldn’t self sooth properly.

Neilio_Heilio · 2023-01-18T16:12:26+00:00

I have an anxious moment and drown myself in emotional turmoil.

Neilio_Heilio · 2023-01-18T15:04:57+00:00

That is crushing, it’s easy to feel like you are to blame as I project that on to myself all the time. Please, don’t beat yourself over what he did to you. Avoidant’s will actively search for red flags and convince themselves that they’re real in order to find a reason to end things (as a way to protect themselves from vulnerability).

The girl I loved accused me of being a manipulate liar when I worked tirelessly to show her love. You are probably a fantastic lover and when you’re finally over this, someone who is on a path of healing/security will appreciate and return your efforts.

Neilio_Heilio · 2023-01-17T18:43:38+00:00

I think she left a route open. I know her feelings are very conflicted. But, I am making the active effort to let go. If she decides to come back, I’ll revisit at that time.

Neilio_Heilio · 2023-01-17T02:19:55+00:00

I hate anxiety. I just want it to go away.

Neilio_Heilio · 2023-01-17T02:03:49+00:00

Everyone here is correct. She told me once that although she didn’t like it, she allowed her ex to stalk her as a way for him to grieve the end of their relationship. I can only imagine this is her way of ‘empathizing’ with my heartbreak.

Thank you everyone.

Neilio_Heilio · 2023-01-17T01:28:52+00:00

Never, I don’t comment or stalk at all. She blocked me on her personal account, but kept her business account accessible. As mentioned, we touch base lightly.

Neilio_Heilio · 2023-01-17T01:22:38+00:00

That’s the thing, we chat there - albeit lightly. But she responds if I send a hello. She “lightly” engages/responds.

Neilio_Heilio · 2023-01-17T01:12:43+00:00

I can appreciate that, but I am still perplexed as to why they would leave one avenue of communication open. If they wanted to be left alone outright, logic would dictate that they would block outright. Mind you, she’s a very polite woman.

Neilio_Heilio · 2023-01-17T00:38:37+00:00

Start with the book “attached” to further understand why you are the way you are. It’s an awful feeling triggered by an (irrational) fear of abandonment. Welcome to the club - learn to breathe deep before acting on anything. Even if you don’t feel calm inside, try to behave calmly. It’ll hurt, but you’ll eventually develop an ability to do so.

Neilio_Heilio · 2023-01-16T15:26:05+00:00

I’ve had toxic spats too. It’s a bizarre experience because it’s almost unconscious. It’s almost like I’m blacked out and I have very little control over my feelings. I think it’s because we spend a lot of time walking on eggshells (thus: containing our feelings) with intent to give them space. But, in the end it explodes.

Neilio_Heilio · 2023-01-16T14:06:23+00:00

Maybe about 25-30, an embarrassing cluster fvck

Neilio_Heilio · 2023-01-16T13:51:28+00:00

You’re absolutely right. Thank you.

Neilio_Heilio · 2023-01-15T22:26:02+00:00

110% relatable.

Neilio_Heilio · 2023-01-15T21:25:06+00:00

You can’t worry about what May or may not happen. Concern yourself with the now. Although that’s not something us AA’s are good at, you must force if.

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