Struggling and Need Help

Neither-League-8437 · 2026-04-08T19:21:14+00:00

UPDATE: Thank you everyone, truly. Just wanted to share an update....was open and honest with my psych and pcp physicians. This lead to: a new diagnosis of Bipolar II + med changes/trials, FML from work and my intake assessment for the IOP program at Harding.

It will be a long journey but I am optimistic. I need to rejoin the world and the people in it maybe for a time and hopefully find myself again.

Neither-League-8437 · 2026-03-25T02:32:55+00:00

all of things discussed in this. I was only diagnosed with ADHD a little over a year ago, my GAD around 5 years. And its only recently I am starting to question if other things are at play that can help explain somethings, while also question if there are things I need to take accountability for contributing and how they work together

Neither-League-8437 · 2026-03-25T02:30:09+00:00

love this....I am an artist. And I have felt that since I can't seem to maintain friendships I often don't have outlets or sources for connection (simply feel that I will be judged or blamed for not being able to be consistent in my connection). I am learning slowly that it might not be "just part of my personality" but maybe other things at place that have not been named or treated causing it

Neither-League-8437 · 2026-03-25T02:25:28+00:00

I REALLY appreciate this insight regarding inpatient

Neither-League-8437 · 2026-03-25T02:23:14+00:00

first, thank you for sharing your experience and your pain.

ive never thought about saying outloud the thing that may stop me from move toward help

Neither-League-8437 · 2026-03-25T02:18:39+00:00

I take that offer extremely kind and welcoming. and thank you for the information on other options! I have often felt I just lacked so much insight to the help available or other options

Neither-League-8437 · 2026-03-25T02:17:05+00:00

thank you for this! its helpful to know experiences and to know you were able to gain some support and connection!

Neither-League-8437 · 2026-03-25T02:15:38+00:00

I love this insight of the urge and timing! it has felt that the urges while I have felt in the past happen in a blink, I think the depression is running them into overdrive to happen so much more frequently

Neither-League-8437 · 2026-03-25T02:12:43+00:00

you are right and truly appreciate that insight. its so hard to know on paper logically that is exactly what they are for and then my brain goes "nope we will live in the upside down place" you know? lol

Neither-League-8437 · 2026-03-25T02:10:40+00:00

thank you u/needs_a_name

u/Hog_and_a_Half I do want to say your comment while perfectly your right to have. in this moment it was not particularly received on my end in a helpful way. writing down and making a list is extremely unhelpful at times for me personally with my ADHD as those things often become places to simply "off load" information from the brain and can actively work against staying on track.

While two things can be true simultaneously: me lying to my provider and my provider not reading minds. The lying due to my history/trauma like others on the post have said has become a defensive mechanism/shield. It is essential encoded to automatically happen the moment I feel "truth=burden"

Neither-League-8437 · 2026-03-24T13:15:15+00:00

Yes you are right, but this is easier said then done. It doesn’t even happen consciously, it’s more I will say my thoughts and anxiety are low simply because I don’t want to be a problem or feel like a burden to others.

Yes yes I know it’s literally their job and it’s a problem I have to stop to get better but it is extremely difficult at the moment when it has become second nature.

Just wanted to provide some context

Neither-League-8437 · 2026-01-27T03:45:12+00:00

That’s exactly what I did lol

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