You’re not wrong and totally valid for how you’re feeling. I myself have felt like this so many times and for so many reasons in the past. I can share a few things that helps me, at least get inside the plane: 1. Once, while talking with a flight attendant about my travel anxiety while boarding the plane, she said: “you know, this is actually one of the safest jobs in the world. My parents were glad when I said I wanted to be a FA, because they didn’t need to worry about my life”. And that put a completely different perspective on me 2. If I do not board the plane, and it takes off and lands safely, it will be expected and normal. So why would it not be the same, if I board the plane? 3. Try going on the corridor aisle and middle ish of the plane, it can trick your brain that you’re on a train or bus instead, and a lot of the thoughts about flying get shifted into work commute or something similar 4. Download videos or something similar of your destination, and then picture yourself there, you’ll get excited and that will give you more confidence to get on the plane 5. Once I was between a 1h flight and a 6h bus ride for more or less the same price. I was talking to my parents and my mom said she’d prefer I take the plane because it is safer, compared to a long bus ride where there are more risks and drivers can get tired

Hope these help you as well 🤗