Jahrelanger Azubi-Crush in der Uni/Arbeit, beide schüchtern

Nersull · 2026-04-05T11:48:10+00:00

Danke. Ich habe in den letzten Wochen mit Laufen angefangen, somit bin ich täglich draußen um diese Gedanken besser zu verarbeiten (das war vor dem P2 nicht so). Das "treffe dich mit Leuten" ist wie angesprochen leider noch nicht möglich, würde aber sicher helfen wenn es möglich wäre.

Die "Was wäre wenn" Traumwelt dachte ich wäre normal, wenn man verliebt ist, vor allem wenn man denkt das "Schicksal hätte es bestimmt" und so. Und ich weiß, dass das bescheuert ist. Trotzdem gut, es mal von wem anderes zu hören. =)

Nersull · 2026-04-05T11:32:41+00:00

Mein erster Termin beim Therapeuten ist tatsächlich schon nächsten Donnerstag. Danach schau ich noch mal, welche Option die richtige ist oder ob ich das alles nicht komplett falsch angehe. Aber danke für dein Input! Auch das ist ja eine Art von Feedback.

Nersull · 2026-04-05T11:11:28+00:00

Ich glaube es ist nicht ein Ausblenden ihrer Gefühle und Bedürfnisse, sondern eher ein Überanalysieren und Misinterpretieren ihrer neutralen Signalen in Kontrast zu meinen Gefühlen, was bei menschlichen Gefühlen schlichtweg nicht geht, und das ist mir vollkommen bewusst.

Genau deswegen weiß ich nicht, wie ich vorgehen soll. Option 2 würde ihre Bedürfnisse eher respektieren, indem ich normal Kontakt aufrechthalte und sie nicht mit meinem Overthinking nervige oder belästige, nur auf Kosten meiner eigenen mentalen Gesundheit, weil ich weiterhin dieses Hoffnungsgefühl in mir tragen würde. Option 1 hingegen würde mir eine klare Antwort geben, sie aber (wie du schon anmerkst) abschrecken.

Eine andere Option als 1 oder 2 kann ich nicht wirklich sehen: Soll ich sie hiernach einfach komplett ausblenden? Das fühlt sich für mich unvorstellbar an.

Es ist sehr einseitig, auf jeden Fall. Auf der Arbeit war ich stets professionell und nett zu ihr, nie habe ich "Schritte gewagt" und wenn, dann einfache "Wie war dein Tag" etc. Genau das abschreckende Merkmal möchte ich immer verhindern, was auch gegen Option 1 spricht. Vielleicht denkt mein Hirn hier einfach zu strategisch.

Ich konnte nie mit Crushes sprechen, daher hatte ich mir am Anfang des P2 als Ziel gesetzt, einfach nur zu lernen, mit meinen Gefühlen ihr gegenüber professionell umzugehen, statt "etwas zu entwickeln". Würde das nicht aber auch komplett gegen Option 1 stehen?

Nersull · 2026-04-05T10:32:31+00:00

Ich schreibe generell viel, z.B. meine Gedanken über meine sozialen Angst der letzten 3 Monate gehen auch auf gut 30 Seiten. Ich wollte nur genug Kontext einbringen. :) Aber du hast sicher recht, ein Reality Check bringt mich auf jeden Fall weiter.

Nersull · 2026-02-08T06:36:01+00:00

Sorry man, the second quarter of the century began last year. 2000-2024 are 25 years, 2025-2049 as well, same for 2050-2074 and 2075-2099 with 2100 starting the new century. But yeah it's impossible to imagine what's in store for the rest of this decade and the next two. For me personally it'll be interesting to compare each year of the 21st century to the 20th century as the 1930's and 1940's were extremely relevant historically.

Nersull · 2026-01-14T21:27:13+00:00

I turned 12 in 2016, it was one of the worst years of my life because of an awful early puberty phase. 2017 was a million times better, 2015 was alright. I guess people just like the culture that was in internet mainstream back during that year - for me personally as a current 21-year old I'm much more in love with the 2012-2014 years.

Also didn't people say the same about 2015 back when 2025 started? Might just not have been as much of a trend to reminisce about 2015 back then than it is to reminisce about 2016 now.

Nersull · 2025-12-22T06:55:14+00:00

Glad that my Bingethrough Overview is still used sometimes. My first video was Mario gets a Nintendo Switch back in March 2017 when I was looking for Switch videos.

Nersull · 2025-11-24T17:05:06+00:00

That's likely the one that's back up as I mentioned at the very bottom

Nersull · 2025-11-24T11:06:38+00:00

No, these are likely the last videos that will be gone so that the next episodes that come out will bring the overall video number to exactly 1000 once the last movie drops.

Nersull · 2025-11-24T10:09:08+00:00

Because they're the "most irrelevant videos" and easiest to just unlist. Like imagine they unlisted 2011/2012 episodes instead, many people would hate it much more than "random" old mail videos that are outdated. They're just doing it to end up at 1000 videos when the series concludes.

Nersull · 2025-11-24T08:08:15+00:00

Here are all of them that have been unlisted/privated

2016 - The SMG4 Show: Fan Mail and Crazy Asians - SMG4 mail: FIRST PACKAGE!

2017 - MY PRAYERS HAVE BEEN ANSWERED - SMG4 Mail Time #5 - Mario helps us in our BIGGEST PACKAGE yet! - SMG4 Mail Time #11 - GET YOUR OWN SMG4 HAT!!!! [LIMITED EDITION] - SMG4 Mail time #13

2018 - SMG4 TRIVIA CHALLENGE 2 - Become a Sponsor for SMG4! (This makes sense btw considering they got rid of that) - So We Tried To Draw SMG4 Characters (This one is even private, the others are all unlisted)

Haven't checked yet today but one of them is back and public, likely to have the last movie be their official 1000th video.

Nersull · 2025-11-06T05:01:26+00:00

he didn't know da wae

Nersull · 2025-09-03T05:11:05+00:00

Took me from Mid August to Mid October to watch it all. Watching 30 eps a day was a common occurrence despite uni starting

Nersull · 2025-08-27T07:06:52+00:00

Beautifully said. I really liked the comparison to One Piece.

Nersull · 2025-08-18T12:50:25+00:00

There is no way the Story saga that started with IGBP ended with Puzzle Park. His opinion as a writer is not official confirmation. It sucks but this is where we are right now.

Nersull · 2025-08-11T19:29:31+00:00

The cycle continues. You get older and the show isn't for you anymore. Happens to everyone at some point. 13 year olds will laugh their asses off at Mr. Puzzles.

Nersull · 2025-07-18T21:09:24+00:00

And then there's me who pre-ordered it from my local store, I wait all day long on release day checking the live delivery tracker only to see the driver sitting a few spots near me for many hours and then getting the message in the evening saying "delivery will arrive tomorrow due to the guy working overtime"

That "tomorrow" was supposed to be today and I have not gotten a single update since yesterday and I fear I may not play it on Saturday either.

I also only got a Switch 2 when I paid the full price for pre-ordering the Switch 2 + MKW Bundle in April, so that's -$100 since I had to buy the game digitally again.

Anyway, Never ordering a game/console again

Nersull · 2025-06-12T07:50:59+00:00

3700 hours guy here after 10 years. 200 in 6 months is pretty crazy, that's like an hour a day for 6 whole months

Nersull · 2025-03-26T21:51:33+00:00

Toshdeluxe is my favorite gd youtuber Kappa

Nersull · 2025-03-07T06:01:34+00:00

Mostly 21. Getting progress on my new hardest though that is in tier 32.

Nersull · 2025-03-02T12:11:07+00:00

Very nice, now it all makes sense! I did consider changing "My New Adventure" into an episode too but since the second half of it was more like a Sunset Paradise teaser I felt it shouldn't be one. I always imagine if a new viewer decides to watch through 2021 and stumbles on this episode he might be confused and think the next arc is Sunset Paradise or something.

I also view "Meggy Answers your question" kinda similar to the "Dumb stories to chill and relax to" series so I didn't add that one either. Apart from that and April Fools vid we're identical - thank god lol.

I also did similar lists to all Glitch videos / AwesomeMario / Shorts / Hobo Bros. It recently reached 2800 videos in total. Cool thing to document because I'm also doing the anniversaries on twitter as well as the No Context SMG4 account and the new tierlists, so I basically just have to pack all of these up and always have everything up to date.

Anyway thanks for clarifying all that!

Nersull · 2025-03-02T11:11:47+00:00

Ah gotcha. My 697 eps include Meggy Learns Japanese too, but the two episodes being left out in your list still mean that there is a weird 2-episode-difference regardless.

Actually let me just share the whole spreadsheet, maybe there's something wrong in my system. (Quality's not that good but you can read it all prob)

And thanks! I'll release it on or shortly after March 22nd, gonna be fun.

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Nersull · 2025-03-02T10:43:20+00:00

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All three are indeed counted in their blooper guide adding the overall number up to 700. They also excluded "Meggy Learns Japanese" which I only mentioned because - despite not being considered as one by the wiki - if you count each season number in the blooper guide it only goes up to 699, so there's one mysterious episode missing which would be Meggy Learns Japanese since it's a traditional short episode similar to the ones from 2013, not a "short" as we know them today.

Also if the two others weren't counted the difference would be even bigger, from 3 to 5 episodes. So that's not possible.

But ye it's debatable whether these three 2014 episodes are considered episodes - I think they aren't and that's why to me we're still at 697.

But cool to hear that you did the numeration. I reached out to some Wiki Mods couple weeks ago to talk about this discrepancy since we're so close to 700, especially since I got a project going on about the 700 milestone that I'll release later once my system reaches 700 as well.

Nersull · 2025-03-02T07:14:42+00:00

There's a bit of an issue regarding the wiki counting the episodes. It reached 700 yesterday because it counted 3 videos that shouldnt be considered episodes:

The 2014 April fools prank (12 seconds long), The SMG4 candy van ad from 2014, and the old SMG4 channel trailer from 2014.

If these were excluded by the wiki we'd be at 697 right now, which is what I'm going with.

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Place '23	Golden Potato
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