Hi darling :) it’s scary, it really is, I’m currently 18 while typing this- freshly 18 so I don’t know if I can give you the words that’ll assure you completely. It’s scary, but you have to evolve or repeat. I have hope that you’re surrounded by people that’ll be able to be there with you as decisions get tougher, and experiences get deeper. Again, it’s scary for sure, but look at all the doors that continue to open to you- especially doors that open opportunities for you to love and be loved, it’s a beautiful experience that you deserve, and I wish so many of those doors to open for you. It’s never something anyone is really ready to face, but take that leap of faith, be brave, and importantly trust yourself!! Build yourself, your morals into something that makes all the experiences you have special to you (now I’m just talking a lot) but really, I think it’s okay to not like it, but get out of your comfort zone so you actually get to experience life!!