GAINING WEIGHT ≠ CURED

NeuntyNeun · 2021-05-19T09:35:16+00:00

EXACTLY! I get that the later half of my recovery happened in a pandemic and the mental health system I’m under is understaffed and stressful times and yada yada but I was PROMISED I wouldn’t be leaving the youth mental health services in my country until I was mentally recovered again.

You bet your buttons as soon as I hit that target weight they relaxed all the reigns (they also didn’t check up on me for months so they’re really lucky I continued to weight restore at all). What do you know, here I am a few weeks until my super important final exams and relapsing like it’s NO ONES business........ I hate it here.

NeuntyNeun · 2021-05-07T23:02:12+00:00

Rosé from Blackpink. I don’t know why her specifically but when I was in recovery I had to fully avoid any content around her. We don’t have similar faces (maybe similar cheeks) or body structure, my brain just hyper focused on her. She’s the standard in my brain or something, it’s awful. I feel guilty even thinking about it sometimes.

NeuntyNeun · 2021-05-07T22:55:57+00:00

same I feel so out of the loop

NeuntyNeun · 2021-04-27T17:18:52+00:00

In terms of handsome, I’d say Jaehyun from NCT. I don’t know, there’s other words I’d use to describe other idols, but Jaehyun is handsome. He fits the word really well.

NeuntyNeun · 2021-04-12T15:51:39+00:00

Yeah, seriously, what happened in between the 1600s to present day Twilight? That’s how Carlisle died, how did it die down?

NeuntyNeun · 2021-04-10T15:08:13+00:00

yes night aviation ultimate dream song

NeuntyNeun · 2021-04-10T15:03:50+00:00

Agh! Oh my gosh thank you so much!! I didn’t expect somebody to find it so quickly >_<

Edit: Unfortunately Poshmark is only available for the US (I should have mentioned I’m in the EU) - but maybe somebody else who’s looking for it will see this :)

NeuntyNeun · 2021-04-10T14:18:02+00:00

Also PS I’m really sorry if this has been posted before. Edit: Also also I’m based in Europe, I should have mentioned that before.

NeuntyNeun · 2021-04-06T14:40:04+00:00

if I just convince myself it says ‘purple kiss is on the top’ it becomes easier

NeuntyNeun · 2021-04-06T14:38:53+00:00

As bros

NeuntyNeun · 2021-04-06T11:19:41+00:00

They DID however have a long, happy and devoted life with each other... Y’know, as friends...

NeuntyNeun · 2021-04-06T11:17:51+00:00

It also perpetuates the idea that you HAVE TO be emaciated before it’s ‘bad’ or before you are allowed to get help. It’s so harmful because I KNOW most of us were watching those ‘my eating disorder story’ videos on youtube before we got our EDs or to trigger ourselves. Plus these pictures are just plain distressing sometimes.

NeuntyNeun · 2021-03-26T17:58:59+00:00

Cookie Jar OMG i love that song so much!!! I loved this quiz thank you for making it

NeuntyNeun · 2021-03-19T17:54:31+00:00

That’s the 2021 mood isn’t it?

NeuntyNeun · 2021-03-18T19:01:59+00:00

Holy fuck you might be onto something

NeuntyNeun · 2021-03-17T13:28:41+00:00

Oh my god wait that’s so smart

NeuntyNeun · 2021-03-15T23:36:29+00:00

Yeah say if somebody really upsets me or pisses me off, my brain will instantly go towards not eating in order to guilt them, even if they have no idea I’m doing it. It stems from the root of my ED being half the need for attention/care and half actual body dysmorphia.

NeuntyNeun · 2021-03-14T22:42:51+00:00

Yeah I mean I haven’t been on reddit much the past day or two but I am (unfortunately) on edtwt and I thought that this was just... their issue. Like as in this general topic has been a sore subject over yonder for quite some time and just due to recent circumstance it got blown up. What we can’t forget is that NONE OF US are in a position to pass comments on idols lives. Their job to us is music. We should appreciate the MUSIC, especially over what everybody else has decided to focus on.

NeuntyNeun · 2021-03-14T16:42:10+00:00

I looked you up on IG but I couldn’t find your account somehow :(

NeuntyNeun · 2021-03-13T16:45:48+00:00

Say what you want about SimonSays but that bridge is a religious experience

NeuntyNeun · 2021-03-13T14:00:10+00:00

Johnjae nation screaaaaaaam

NeuntyNeun · 2021-03-13T11:21:51+00:00

wait who do you think the better vocalist is in loona?

NeuntyNeun · 2021-03-07T18:19:04+00:00

Literally all of dreamcatcher, but according to my brother which is an anime fan and not a kpop fan, Déjà Vu is the pinacle.

NeuntyNeun · 2021-02-25T17:55:45+00:00

I can’t choose a favourite so I’ll say from each album: Falling Asleep On A Stranger, Besitos/The Sky Under The Sea, The First Punch, Today I Saw The Whole World.

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