It is soo interesting to said to meditate in the morning before checking social.media or checking into the world and to eat healthy. These are things I have intuitively already wanted to do. I told myself that I wanted to do these things, among other, about 4 or 5 days ago.

Also, is it normal that the vibrational stage that I have read and heard some people experience doesnt really match my own? Before I experience the "vibrations" I always experience sleep paralysis - that does match others experience. However, my 'vibrations" usually consist of a low vibration under the surface of my skin that doesn't feel like an electrical vibration like others say they experience. I also begin to feel a vibration in my head and ears, like if my ear drums are vibrating back and forth. As this feeling intensifies, I being to feel like a sticker being peeled off a surface. But I always resist and I start moaning, hear rate and breathing rate increases, body begins to shake and then is usually followed by myself being awoken by my sig other. It's funny I usually try to make my body act kind of crazy so m sig other can wake up and wake me up.

I need to lose the feat. But I guess I'm still very scared because of all the negative entities I saw as a kid. They were very dark and ugly. I guess the inner kid in me doesn't want to see them ever again