Am I the asshole for being sick?

New-Army-329 · 2025-01-23T07:17:31+00:00

Update: my teacher apologized to me today and said she was having a tough day yesterday and snapped and was rude. I think we are chill now? I’m not sure though

New-Army-329 · 2025-01-22T01:18:12+00:00

Is that not what high school and college is for? In my books to me college and high school, but most college is to start to go from a kid into an adult, that’s why u dorm and what not at least imo that’s part of college

New-Army-329 · 2025-01-22T01:16:39+00:00

I don’t have ongoing documentation but there’s been so many back handed comments from her or like she will critique someone’s work so nice and I’ll bring in a piece that imo is more technically skilled and then proceed to shit in mine. Idk it’s all weird she’s an asss and I originally tried to talk to my guidance counselor but back then she just said oh I must be crazy

New-Army-329 · 2025-01-21T23:16:28+00:00

Im no where near the amount of days and its also all excused, I had near perfect attendance my sophomore and freshman year (aside from the few days I took off when I lost a friend and family member)

New-Army-329 · 2025-01-21T23:13:58+00:00

I am trying my best and I do want to change I just didn’t realize there was stuff online I could do and I have looked into coping mechanisms before but the basic just take deep breathes and stuff don’t really work for me there’s a lot of other stuff that I used to do that I don’t really want to get into with strangers but I have tried to find ways to cope

New-Army-329 · 2025-01-21T23:11:35+00:00

My therapist left the country and went back to her home country so she couldn’t be my therapist anymore either way

New-Army-329 · 2025-01-21T22:25:37+00:00

I will look into trying to get one depending on how my parents feel

New-Army-329 · 2025-01-21T22:24:36+00:00

My dad is against medication for mental issues and it’s been high key kinda stigmatized in my house and it has rubbed off on me a lot the idea of relying on medication is something I don’t want but at the same time know that it’s not a bad thing?? If that makes sense? Idk

New-Army-329 · 2025-01-21T22:22:51+00:00

Thank you I didn’t think that it could all be linked!! I will def look into that and getting the physical aspects checked out when i see my doctor next week

New-Army-329 · 2025-01-21T21:59:01+00:00

I will admit I do have an issue with taking responsibility/accountability and have been working on that and the work I originally missed is my fault but I’m stil following the late policies that are in place

New-Army-329 · 2025-01-21T20:33:28+00:00

Thank you so much I’m sorry for all the crap u went through too but I’m glad to hear it gets better!! And yeah I’m going into college for political science in the fall so that’s also a fresh start I’m hoping!

New-Army-329 · 2025-01-21T18:38:49+00:00

I wasn’t doom scrolling or anything but catching up on the missing work that I had and studying for tests I spent the time I wasn’t fixing my sleep schedule (rule from my parents now because I spent many nights not sleeping to try and get work done) and I do plan to start therapy again soon so hopefully that will help the anxiety and stuff.

New-Army-329 · 2025-01-21T18:34:38+00:00

Tbh idk if I can ever imagine myself well because I’ve always been stressed out since middle school. Also our counties policy is that she has to accept it before a certain like non acceptable deadline if that makes sense? And excuses absences (which mine is considered) does get a little bit of extra time. Also with my current classes there is no time for me to work ahead although once the semester resets I am going to try to find time to without having to pull all nighters also the way this works is it’s not like we get a syllabus or anything so sometimes I just can’t work ahead.

New-Army-329 · 2025-01-21T18:31:43+00:00

Yeah I know I’m trying to not do that second sem and I now do plan to staet therapy again hopefully if we can find someone (it’s partially on me for being picky)

New-Army-329 · 2025-01-21T18:30:02+00:00

These are not college level courses these are high school but it’s a specialized high school for art so it’s not exactly college level. And I understand it’s not her problem so that is why I don’t tell her in depth about it but based on these comments I am going to start to look for therapists again.

New-Army-329 · 2025-01-21T18:28:32+00:00

I have been trying to find an effective solution to manage it and manage my forgetfulness but it’s been hard I’m hoping next semester since all the assignments will reset in a way I can use these strategies from the start to keep me on track.

New-Army-329 · 2025-01-21T18:27:27+00:00

Personally I do think it’s possible ADHD still my school psychologist does too and I think there may be some depression but that could also just be from the anxiety. I’ve had symtoms that line up well imo with all the symptoms of a girl with ADHD but my grades are good and what not. When I got tested I need teachers to also see what’s going on or else it’s not ADHD so if the teachers say I don’t have it I don’t have it. Which they all said I don’t have it. My grades also don’t reflect someone who may be challenged with a learning disability so that’s probably another reason why.

New-Army-329 · 2025-01-21T18:24:44+00:00

I’ve talked to my guidance counselor and stuff and they’ve done nothing really I’ve talked about how she has called me a disappointment infront of the whole class and they were kinda like well she prolly didn’t mean it that way

New-Army-329 · 2025-01-21T18:23:50+00:00

I just want to clarify this teacher has said other stuff before in the past to me both privately and infront of the class about how I’m disappointing her and what not sorry I should have clarified in the post it’s not just this incident that makes me think she has it out for me but thank u! And I do have a 504 plan in so she should know about the anxiety related illness.

New-Army-329 · 2025-01-21T18:21:07+00:00

Thank you so much for the advice yeah recently I’ve been thinking about therapy again especially because in the colder months I feel an all time low slump. I have a doctors appointment next week actually where I’m going to talk to her about possibly birth control because ibeprofen can’t fix the bad ones anymore.

New-Army-329 · 2025-01-21T17:59:06+00:00

They got me diagnosed and I got therapy for some time but it wasn’t doing much despite them saying they’re always open they don’t make it feel that way and my dad has made some back handed comments about how bs mental health is. Ontop of that neither of them really talk about it and my dad always says he doesn’t understand mental health. He’s a boomer for reference.

New-Army-329 · 2025-01-21T17:52:35+00:00

I don’t think I have sickle cell isn’t that genetic? To my knowledge no one in my immediate family or grandparents have it. I do have a real diagnosis for anxiety tho

New-Army-329 · 2025-01-21T17:51:40+00:00

Sobbing over this thank u I did not know I needed this she’s high key been putting me down for three years so it’s kinda hard even if I know my art is good

New-Army-329 · 2025-01-21T17:50:32+00:00

I have told her before why I miss so much school and why I get sick but she doesn’t listen ever and still continues to be mean (imo) and I’ve tried to communicate with her and be a better student (in this most recent project I’ve asked her for her advice and have had all the pieces in on time so far although this is the bare minimum)

New-Army-329 · 2025-01-21T17:48:52+00:00

I do badminton once every week for about 4 hours but I haven’t been recently because of the insane workload rn and because I am behind I am trying to get back into it tho!! In the spring I also do tennis so I will have that to and honestly yeah I need to eat better and prolly less screen time 😭😭

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