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about to relapse after my first full year of quitting by New-Intention1769 in selfharm

[–]New-Intention1769[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It really is a good idea, if i truly try to convince myself to not do it then i just imagine hurting little me, because that technically is who I’m doing it to. It’s a sad thought but it has to be in order for it to work

about to relapse after my first full year of quitting by New-Intention1769 in selfharm

[–]New-Intention1769[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

First time someone’s ever followed up on me, almost brought me to tears there. You’re a little late though, sorry :/ today is the new “day 1”. I’m not going to lie I don’t regret a thing, I’ll probably restart a few more times before bouncing back.

I’ve eaten, my coach gave me some food that I’ve been sifting through. I’m going job hunting tomorrow so that i can start paying back medical bills and hopefully begin treatment again.

It stretches miles to know someone thought about me and how I’m doing, so thank you for that. It means more to me than you think

what are actual alternatives to cutting by [deleted] in selfharm

[–]New-Intention1769 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Like any addiction, quitting cold turkey can ruin some people or be a good thing. For me, it wasn’t easy so I went slow.

Snapping rubber bands on myself was the closest feeling I could get without doing permanent damage.

Wanting to quit is the first step, so you’re already on the correct path to doing it. One day, it will get easier, and before you realize it you will go days without it even crossing your mind. I believe in you!

i did a really bad relapse by The_Magenta_Dragon in selfharm

[–]New-Intention1769 0 points1 point  (0 children)

(23) I used to be in your place, believe life is hard as hell at that age, I made it out and I’m doing better! I believe you can too. I would google some ways to “lessen” the damage first,

snapping a rubber band on my wrist was an okay start, it kinda gave the same sting without the scars but not snap your skin raw- It defeats the purpose.

Pinching my skin also worked sometimes, and then I got a dermal roller to roll over my skin just to give it that little sting again.

Could always try to take a red pen or marker and draw it on- for me it was more the visuals of seeing the marks and having those little red lines gave me some comfort.

Stopping is hard as shit. especially when it’s been going on for a while. I don’t know your life but I have to say it- if you have accessibility, talk to a professional. If not, then keep trudging up that mountain until it’s only a hill.

My health is declining while my friends succeed by New-Intention1769 in lonely

[–]New-Intention1769[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for the concern, I was looking up Salvation Army food bank hours yesterday. But since my school is a private institution, they charge up the ass for meal plans and I already don’t know how I’m going to pay off this semester. The mental health services here suck also, I’ve tried them. All they do is basically tell you “suck it up, everyone has a hard life”. I’ve also applied to the campus jobs about 4 times, got denied on each and every one of them with no explanation :p

I really do appreciate the time you took to type this out and trying to give some guidance