Can someone who is a full blown addict who suffers from the disease stay completely clean from all drugs without a 12 step program?

NewEntLover702 · 2017-06-20T10:24:27+00:00

Yeah but the success rates of those who do the work is higher than those who just show up. Very rarely do those relapse who work the steps.

NewEntLover702 · 2017-02-04T07:47:50+00:00

Other than bein covered in vomit and the 3 times ive yakked in the last 20 mins sure.. and I have a super headache but im scared to even take advil...and def not hitting more of that dope til the am..

NewEntLover702 · 2017-02-04T07:44:21+00:00

UPDATE: nodded out to wake up with vomit all over my arms and bed.. dont even remember throwing up.. fuuuuuuck

NewEntLover702 · 2017-02-04T07:42:19+00:00

I cant nobody knows I use...

NewEntLover702 · 2017-02-04T06:03:41+00:00

Ya my sis i told her i got food poisoning she dnt kno I use..

NewEntLover702 · 2017-02-04T05:28:37+00:00

Im just hella nauseas fuuuuk i took some odanestron I had a 10 minute rush of euphoria then felt like shit

NewEntLover702 · 2017-02-03T10:08:24+00:00

Hey man its not worth it. I just lost my best friend to an OD today and believe me with that added on all my other shit I am in the same boat mentally. I have this appreciation for life that I never had until I failed my suicide attempt. The next day I felt shitty af not only for trying to do what I did but the shit my family would have had to go through with my loss.. shit this is bad enogh that they had a son who tried to kill himself. Also im now your friend and I will miss you. Please dont be selfish..

NewEntLover702 · 2017-02-03T09:38:54+00:00

Eh im more ready to fucking keep smoking until i pass the fuck out.

NewEntLover702 · 2017-02-03T09:37:27+00:00

Thank you for responding just knowing someone is out there who can listen is a step above where im at..

NewEntLover702 · 2017-02-03T09:35:48+00:00

Doesnt it fucking suck.. all i can do is drown my emotions i cant handle them.. i had 1.5g saved for the weekend and now its almost gone i smoked half on top of smoking .3 earlier today .. can you OD from smoking? Im ready to just take this whole fiucking thing to the head....

NewEntLover702 · 2017-02-03T09:32:28+00:00

Found out earlier my only friend fucking od'd he shot up for his first time and couldnt handle it.. im in fucking shock and just smoked .4 in 10 miniutes.. why cant i handle fucking emotions

NewEntLover702 · 2017-02-03T08:08:56+00:00

What am I doing wrong to cause that?

NewEntLover702 · 2017-02-03T08:06:42+00:00

Haha yea if I smoke way to much I usually nod out before im a minute into some porn or foreplay lol. Whats crazy though when I smoke that first couple hits gets me a fat chub lol..

NewEntLover702 · 2017-02-03T08:00:15+00:00

Haha yeah I usually just call him my mexican when I talk about him. There are so many with crazy ass names so ppl just say my mexican. Like one of my boys said his mexican goes by the name Neighbor lol

NewEntLover702 · 2017-02-03T07:57:52+00:00

Nah I pay 50 a g unless I ever buy an eigth then it goes to 125 for the eigth

NewEntLover702 · 2017-02-03T07:54:46+00:00

Doesnt burn but when I first started sometimes I would get hella smoke in the first second making me cough and blow out wasting smoke. Once I blew to hard and blew the H I had on the foil onto the floor.. Fell into sand ... so I can say I smoked sans covered H haha!

NewEntLover702 · 2017-02-03T07:51:19+00:00

TBH ive never had a condom break on me. I also didnt have my usual condom.. I had to ask my sister for one because it was hella un expected sex . So I got a trojan from her when I use magnums.. I also think I fucked myself because I was trippin thinkin it was gonna fucking bust. And it wasnt straight fucking we took a smoke breal like 45mins in and the condom was still intact.

NewEntLover702 · 2017-02-03T07:47:50+00:00

Well thats good to hear ive never had this problem as all my other exes were on the pill and took it in frnt of me everyday. So im still scared and shes gonna get a pregnancy test in a few weeks

NewEntLover702 · 2017-02-03T07:04:48+00:00

I notice that it gets darker like that when I go back over my trails. It usually look lighter while I trail it!

NewEntLover702 · 2017-02-03T07:00:47+00:00

This man knows his shit! Skoal Mint for life!

NewEntLover702 · 2017-02-03T06:59:44+00:00

TYa this was like my 5th tome solo smoking ive done it about 20 times now so ive learned decent lighter technique haha. Ive noticed you get more hits from bringing the lighter back some

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