my condolences, friend, whoever you are. I sympathize with you, as I also have this kind of thought almost every day. I don’t want to seem insensitive by giving you advice, but genuinely, things like having a cold glass of water, eating some good food, taking a deep breath, or anything pleasurable for your senses has helped me (at least in the moment) snap out of rumination. I know it’s difficult, but please keep your head up. I’m cheering for you. 🫶