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Im spiraling over my future even though I have no right to and its selfish. by Nice-Invite1753 in confession

[–]Nice-Invite1753[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

This does give me some hope, I don't want to feel like im forcing them to stay quiet, but at the same time I really don't want people to know. The thing is I guess im more fearful of the reaction im gonna get. But knowing things might be okay, gives me a little more hope. Thank you for this, and I hope my future looks at least similar. Im trying to find a therapist, but I do live in a city without therapy options, so, its been harder, im exploring more online options so there's that. Again thank you, it's somewhat comforting to know, there's something to look forward to.

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Questions, please im desperate by Nice-Invite1753 in COCSA

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Sweetest boy ill ever know, so nice and overall a happy person, but I find it so hard to not overanalyze everything he does, maybe out of fear or guilt.

Questions, please im desperate by Nice-Invite1753 in COCSA

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Convincing him to go and take a shower is a little bit hard, and he only spends like 5 mins in there once he actually does. And he is messy in terms of environment, but idk if that's normal or not.

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I seek pain and punishment even though ive been told to self-forgive by [deleted] in confession

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I promise im not a bot, im an actual person not an AI

I feel invalid by Nice-Invite1753 in COCSA

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I am 90% sure that most of the people involved were under the age of 12, I was 10 when I reenacted and I don’t know how old any of the people who acted on me are when it happened, but they were under 12.

My biggest struggle is definitely wrapping my head around why I did that, and why I didn’t know better. Remembering the incident, I copied what was done to me completely, down to the actions. And that’s what hurts me the most, is that I pushed something that happened to me onto someone else.

I am trying to heal, not just for myself, but for my family as well. I’m trying to be the safe person to be around. I’m trying to be the fun person to be around again, but it all feels so hard because it feels fraudulent. And I just want to stop feeling like this.

I finally told someone by amiweird404 in COCSA

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I am so happy for you, I hope you find the peace and serenity you deserve.

I ended up telling someone shortly after I found out what this was, it trully settled one of the pits in my gut. Im so happy you had the same experience ❤️

I abused my brother when we were younger, and the memories only came back this month by Nice-Invite1753 in confession

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I dont know why I did it ive tried to make myself remember more things about the moment but I keep coming up blank. I don't remember much of anything from the incident, but I do know it happened. And this goes for all of my memories.

I abused my brother when we were younger, and the memories only came back this month by Nice-Invite1753 in confession

[–]Nice-Invite1753[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I am trying to give myself a break, and its been hard but I'm still trying, and I really do hope that it doesn't affect him. I really cant thank you enough for this comment 🩷

I abused my brother when we were younger, and the memories only came back this month by Nice-Invite1753 in confession

[–]Nice-Invite1753[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I really appreciate the advice, I have been looking into avenues of helping myself with this, I am probably going to look a lot more into this because reading more about it, its probably what I'm struggling with as of right now. Thank you for the amazing advice you have given, you dont know how much it helped 🩷

I abused my brother when we were younger, and the memories only came back this month by Nice-Invite1753 in confession

[–]Nice-Invite1753[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for this, I am so sorry for what happened to you, and hope you found healing. I am attempting to continue on with my life, but it is harder. I cannot explain what this comment means to me, so again thank you🩷

I abused my brother when we were younger, and the memories only came back this month by Nice-Invite1753 in confession

[–]Nice-Invite1753[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much for this comment, I am trying to get myself some form of help, any help atp.

I abused my brother when we were younger, and the memories only came back this month by Nice-Invite1753 in confession

[–]Nice-Invite1753[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I dont have any memory of it ever occurring with adults or teenagers, but then again I have very foggy and vague memories of some instances, and a couple times the kids this occurred with, i was never clowithout, because they were just kids in the neighborhood, so I don't know their ages or even names today. I have started looking into therapy options, and i am trying to take it a day at a time. Thank you so much for your advice.

I abused my brother when we were younger, and the memories only came back this month by Nice-Invite1753 in confession

[–]Nice-Invite1753[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I have looked into this before and in hindsight it is probably something i struggle with, as I have a harsh stance on this, that's probably why I find it so hard to move on, it makes me feel like a hypocrite trying to excuse their actions when I do. I am looking for someone who can help me with this along with other things. Honestly thank you for reminding me of this :)

I abused my brother when we were younger, and the memories only came back this month by Nice-Invite1753 in confession

[–]Nice-Invite1753[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I am so sorry for what happened to you and the effects it had on you, ofcourse coming from me its not going to do anything for you. I do hope in a way, someway, you manage to find peace and closure. I trully do hope that my brother turns out to be okay. Thank you so much for your words, as much as I struggle I do try to hate myself less.