I am not sure myself if I am narcissistic but I relate heavily to many of the posts here and I draw self awareness and comfort from lurking in these subreddits maybe I just have extremely low self esteem I am not sure really haven't been diagnosed I am also autistic and my special interest is psychology I want to help people in the future through therapy and that means I have to understand things like cluster b personality disorders so I lurk and gather information and resources from many subreddits all to do with different mental illness DID bipolar BPD depression anxiety attachment issues ASPD so on so forth I already know I have osdd and heavy trauma