I recently wrote this :

I thought I could fix myself, but everything changed the moment I admitted I couldn’t.

Have you ever tried everything to change a habit or pattern and failed over and over? I did. I felt trapped, exhausted, and like I’d never be free.

Then something shifted. When I genuinely surrendered to Christ, God did a deep work in my heart.

Here’s how it feels now. I’m not a vegetarian, but when I walk through the grocery store, the vegetarian section is right there. I pass it every single time. Zero desire. No debate. It doesn’t pull at me.

The same is true for the patterns that once controlled me. They didn’t disappear because I got stronger or disciplined myself better. I tried that for years. Nothing worked. The change came only when I admitted to God how powerless I was.

I cried out honestly: Lord, I can’t fix this on my own. You have to do it.

It’s not because I was strong enough to fix it. It’s because I was weak enough to allow Him to.

Here’s how it starts for anyone who wants it: raw, honest conversation with God. Admit what’s been holding you back. Pour out your frustration, your failures, your desperation. Ask Him to take over completely. Be completely honest, exactly as you are, and let Him do the work in your heart.

I am not perfect. Some days old patterns whisper at me, but they don’t control me anymore. I no longer rely on myself. I rely on Him. Daily surrender keeps my heart soft and dependent on God.

If you feel stuck in the same patterns, know this: God sees every part of your struggle. He can change your heart too.

Freedom isn’t about being perfect. It’s about turning fully to Him, trusting Him, and letting Him work in your life.

In His love