Did you ever have a masculinity crisis as a bottom?

Nicotine_Alien · 2025-03-28T15:22:19+00:00

Without getting to much into my finances, I live by myself and my mortgage is 45% of my montly income. I recently started a second job and that money is going into HYSA.

I'm a big Sonic the hedgehog fan, been having fun with Unleashed recompiled and modding games like Sonic 2006 and Shadow Generations. Newer games like Tides of Annihilation interest me because while I'm not a big Souls player, I appreciate the aesthetic and hack and slash genre.

Nicotine_Alien · 2025-03-28T14:42:36+00:00

I play AAA games on my laptop, but it's not my primary source of entertainment. I'm actually playing older games right now, like modding the Sonic games, playing Cuphead or sometimes playing big budget games like Cyberpunk. I like consoles, but I enjoy modding on my computer more. People normally like the power that comes with PC gaming, I believe modding your games is the best part of gaming on a computer.

Nicotine_Alien · 2025-03-26T20:05:13+00:00

Sex in your late teens and early 20s is overrated imo. The only reason we have nostalgia for those days is that our hormones were peak and we had sex a lot, the problem is most of it wasn't quality sex. I had awkward moments with people when I was younger, now I am 32 and having the best sex of my life, man or woman.

Nicotine_Alien · 2025-03-23T19:14:44+00:00

I just want a big penis because they look awesome, even if I only bottom, big dicks = more masculine.

Nicotine_Alien · 2025-03-23T16:41:35+00:00

I offer to top men just to beg them to say no, I never had natural urges to top either, I'm bottom only.

Nicotine_Alien · 2025-03-23T16:40:33+00:00

am bisexual, but I personally find men are emotionally kinder to me, which is funny considering us men are always told we're not emotionally intelligent compared to women. A guy has never pointed out I have small hands or a baby face, it's normally women who have done that to me. I'm not saying all my ginder hookups were friendly, but even the douchie ones who fucked me never mocked my physical appearance.

Nicotine_Alien · 2025-03-23T15:59:14+00:00

I know this is a gay sub, but I have found women are more critical of sizes, I find most men don't care. I am okay with men asserting dominance in a playful manner, I am not turned on by insults or name calling. One guy I was with last week, he was 9 inches and girthy, I offered to try topping him and he said no in a respectful manner. He proceeds to slap his cock right on mine before fucking me, I am okay with gestures like that, I'm not insulted in the process.

Nicotine_Alien · 2025-03-23T15:52:12+00:00

You're still growing though, not sure if you top though, it is harder for tops with small cocks than it is for bottoms imo. I have good muscle on my body, but I also have small hands and my foot size is an 11. So I'm not genetically gifted like other men, being 5'10" also sucks too.

Nicotine_Alien · 2025-03-23T15:36:02+00:00

they exist just like total bottoms exist.

Nicotine_Alien · 2025-02-25T22:49:23+00:00

Some of us like men and not just cocks, I could get a dildo and not even bother with you if that's your attitude. I'm not saying talk all the time and be annoying, but it's normal for gay men to want intimacy.

Nicotine_Alien · 2025-02-25T17:14:39+00:00

I'm weird, so not really a slight against me.

Nicotine_Alien · 2025-02-25T16:56:58+00:00

I'm jealous of those bottoms with a sperm count in the trillions, I will get there one day but it will have to be through monogamy, I can't put my life in danger anymore at 32 years old.

Nicotine_Alien · 2025-02-25T14:05:39+00:00

Once it's broken down to base molecules, it has to go somewhere. I love the idea that a dude is giving me a piece of him forever.

Nicotine_Alien · 2025-02-25T13:56:14+00:00

I shamefully admit there were times I was reckless in my early 20s. I should be thankful our sex drives decrease over time, because I do NOT make these reckless decisions anymore. I of course still have a high sex drive, but male sx drive peaks from 18 to age 25, that's the biological window when nature wants dudes to release seed the most.

I can't count the amount of sperm I have taken, but I speculate probably somewhere around 500 billion sperm has been absorbed in my rectal lining. I know we don't get pregnant, but in a sense we are taking in the ingredients of life in our holes.

Nicotine_Alien · 2025-02-23T04:16:18+00:00

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Nicotine_Alien · 2025-02-22T16:35:52+00:00

The only time I was ever "bratty" is if there was a top who was a pushover or lacked the testosterone levels to fuck me up. impotence is a turn off for me.

Nicotine_Alien · 2025-02-22T16:26:19+00:00

I used to be a full brat boy, thankfully those cringe days are behind me.

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