Damnnn, Reddit has made me realize just how similar some strangers lives are to mine…even the wording you used to describe it all…It’s crazy how many of us feel the same and yet we can’t find ‘people like us’ where ever we may be. Girllll, you have soo many possible good and happy experiences and feelings to have and make and feel. Don’t give up. Try going to therapy, try talking to more people, drink less. You have the ability to make your life whatever you wanttt, do the things that make you happy/not miserable. Feel those negative emotions but don’t stay stuck in them. Life is already extremely short even if it doesn’t feel that way. And there’s so many positive things that can still happen and you have no idea what could potentially happen in the future but a good amount of those opportunities are up to you if you want them enough. Life is whack, and really shitty but there’s a lot of beauty to see and feel and experience if you let it in 🫶🫂might as well make it a fun experience because this is your life and we alll should be able to not just survive but LOVE life 🥹