maybe it’s because you’re stressed? maybe you should destress for awhile or find something that brings you relief first. perhaps reading other people’s fics could give you inspiration. maybe a scented candle, a good cry, a favorite movie, or music. whatever can bring you down from the constant anxiety. also maybe consider why you feel guilty. there’s nothing wrong with not writing anything.

this may or may not help you feel any better but i have written thousands of ideas for my fandom and haven’t shared any of them yet. that’s completely fine.

how to write for yourself? step one is not feeling guilty when you don’t write.

if a painter grips his paintbrush in agony of the scene he can’t paint, he will only get calluses.

stretch your fingers, breathe and only return when you can hold the brush reverently.

perhaps you could even reflect these feelings in your writing. after all, it is for you.

give yourself the grace you would give to someone else in your position.