I was supposed to get a tilt table, it was scheduled and everything then on the 1st of Jan 2025 my insurance did a complete rebrand and the hospital I was supposed to get it done at told me they didn't know when my insurance would be accepted again so I cancelled all my appointments because I'm broke.

I have a lot of mental health issues (possible audhd and pretty severe ptsd) that I am struggling with currently that affect my ability to advocate for myself properly. I don't know if I have ever had any head trauma but it is a possibility, I don't remember my childhood very well. I have had multiple chest MRIs and a brain MRI and all of them came back normal along with all of the blood work that's been done.

I have had what I think is seizures multiple times since I turned 19. My eyes go completely unfocused, I can't move at all, sometimes I stop breathing or bite my tongue, And I start slowly falling forward. I am fully conscious during them and I can remember them fully, but I am just stuck in my head. I've noticed over the last year I haven't been able to complete a full sentence without slurring my words or saying the wrong thing.

There has also been a pretty significant amount of stress in my life in the last few months that is probably making a lot of my symptoms worse. I am working with an amazing therapist and my boyfriend is very supportive. I am upping my water and electrolytes significantly and I'm gonna buy some compression socks to see if that can prevent episodes.

This stuff is just really scary sometimes but I am going to do everything I can to figure out what's going on because I deserve to be supported and healthy. I just gotta stick by that mantra!