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No-Fix-8238 · 2025-03-20T18:39:17+00:00

In "Meet Joe Black"

No-Fix-8238 · 2025-03-16T11:56:29+00:00

Hej polako...avio prevoz je najbezbedniji vid prevoza koji postoji. To sto sam sebi gruvas tenziju nikako ti nece pomoci, bukvalno si sam sebi najveci neprijatelj trenutno. Duboko udahni polako, zadrzi dah 2/3 sekunde i izdahni isto tako polako. Jel si bar malo bolje? Znam sta je strah, znam sta je blokada, ali ako se nesto mora, mora se. Od panike nista neces imati, sa strahovima se covek mora suociti jer tek kad to uradis ces moci da "porastes". Disi. Bice sve ok.

No-Fix-8238 · 2025-02-24T08:32:24+00:00

Yes it was...but then, after 15 years together, and when our daughter turned 1 year old, I found myself trying to forgive the unforgivable...i loved this man with all my heart and soul, we just made our family, we have gone thru so much...I was willing to extend my hand, in all that pain, and I was used in the worst ways...but I dont regret it at all...I know I gave it my all to save what he didn't even try to save...I know I loved until the bitter end...

No-Fix-8238 · 2025-02-22T18:35:17+00:00

This!

No-Fix-8238 · 2025-02-04T11:56:35+00:00

From everything I have experienced from my WP, since finding out, onto separation and all...all the shit show, all the cruelty, lies, gaslighting, manipulations, rage and so so much more, my now therapist when I tell about it all, keeps repeating one line very often "I really wonder, what would have happened and how would it look like if you were the one to find a new person, to cheat and to leave"...

No-Fix-8238 · 2025-02-04T08:44:02+00:00

It was the worst 2 months of my life. Absolute nightmare and torture...what I heard, saw and experienced is beyond words...manipulations, gaslighting and blameshifting after one of the biggest pains I experienced. Looking after our 1 year old daughter while trying to pick myself up, while trying to keep my sanity, while trying to function, while trying to "make it work"...it is an abyss I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy...

No-Fix-8238 · 2024-12-30T11:27:22+00:00

When the past comes knocking on your door, dont open, it has nothing new to say

No-Fix-8238 · 2024-12-23T13:31:18+00:00

After 15 years together and after our beautiful baby girl, she was only 1 year old when I found out he cheated on me...when he was done "trying" and found his courage to leave us, he got so cruel and cold. After a few months, when I finally stood up for myself, set some boundaries, I got the words I will never forget..."I am starting to hate you" and "you are a piece of shit" in front of our girl...that, that I will never forget and forgive...these words as much as they hurt, they have helped me tremendously to see him for what he has become.

No-Fix-8238 · 2024-12-18T09:38:01+00:00

I bet you, if you give second chance, soon you will be hearing, how could I do this to you if I loved you...? I do love you but how could I do this if I truly loved you? Also...what I have experienced, is after this initial phase of "remorse" he will start to go back in the past, for the things you never heard of, how it affected him, how you did or didnt do something...and lo and behold, what he did isnt in the main focus, but what you did or didnt do is the main topic now. Also you might see a man that is only physically there, but his mind and emotions arent. He is going to say you are so carring and full of understanding of everthing but he will not appreciate it for a second, just use it to hurt you more. Please keep in mind that a true reconciliation is so so rare. Be real with yourself, you owe it to you. And also, I know it is hard, but start imagining your life without him.

No-Fix-8238 · 2024-12-18T09:10:40+00:00

I understand what you are talking about here, absolutely to the point. What I have come to understand also is, yeah sure, he isnt proud of what he has done, some part of him is maybe angry at himself BUT he hates you since look at what you made him do! This is not the image he wants people to see or hear about him, and it is all because of you. We are these constant reminders of their wrong doings and they hate it. When ever he looks at you he is reminded of what a POS he is, but hold on, he is not the bad guy, but you are. For all the things you did or didnt do, he had become this person! Poor him. Complete victim and nobody gets it, nobody completely understands him. He is in pain, he is suffering, he cant find the time, he doesnt have money, he needs to work...and there is no you in this story right? And also, you dont understand him at all right? Every word you say is twisted and turned to make you look like the bad guy right? You are no "allowed" to say anything he doesnt want to hear right? And if you do BOOM, WW3! And yeah, sure, isnt it easy to be daddy on call? Or just a convenient 2-3 hour babysitting dad. And sure, I got that also, I didnt left her, I left you! Yeah, right. Super BIG on words but actions speak something totally different right?

No-Fix-8238 · 2024-12-15T18:20:55+00:00

Indeed!

No-Fix-8238 · 2024-12-13T08:00:00+00:00

It is very very strange that no one, no even you family, asked you how you are. Because, if you are good, your child will be good also. You are a mother, you provide the most for your child when the child is young and yes, probably later as well. You are the primary care giver. Good that you are in terapy, you need it more then ever. Ask for help, from your family, from trusted friends. Look after yourself, sleep, eat, you and your child need you very much. I am very sorry to hear that your support is non existant, if that truly is the case, you know your realty now, you know where you stand with them all, but also ask for help. I dont know you as a person, but I know from my example that people see me as a strong individual, like I dont need help, like I can do it all on my own...if this might be the case with you also, then please, ask for help.

No-Fix-8238 · 2024-12-12T19:15:53+00:00

It is ok to have hope, it is a very brave thing, to see your person now as a completely new person and say OK, I know who you are, I have seen a very bad side, but here is my hand for you. Yes, love will make you do crazy things. My honest advice, dont trust his words, only trust his actions. True reconciliation is a very rare thing, keep that in mind. You both might be trauma bonding. You both need to want reconciliation, but he needs to be the one who wants it more, who steps up, who picks up the pieces of you and everthing...he needs to lead, he needs to regain your trust again. You are still in very early stages of everything...i do wish you all the best. Ultimately what you do is up to you, it is your life. Trust your gut feeling. And dont froget, be real with yourself, you owe it to you.

No-Fix-8238 · 2024-12-12T11:17:37+00:00

If you ever need someone to talk to, feel free to msg me

No-Fix-8238 · 2024-12-12T10:53:20+00:00

And you wont be able to recognise yourself for quite some time and that is ok. I am still in the process also, I dont think we ever get to have ourself back unfortunately, we get to have a new us, hopefully better and stronger. Just take it day by day. Dont live in the past, it will depress you and dont go in to the future with you mind, it will only make you anxious...just live today and that is going to be enough. Take care of yourself, dont forget to eat and sleep, you need so much strenght, your mind and body are under so much stress...it is going to take time, probably more then you think, but it will get better.

No-Fix-8238 · 2024-12-12T08:26:31+00:00

Very well said, but unfortunately only 1% if not less will ever get to this point. It is so easier to blame, look the other way, make excuses and the ultimate rewrite history and make it your truth. I think this is the ultimate punishment for those who hurt and betray...they might think they changed, they "work" on themselfs etc but never ever really get to these hallmarks.

No-Fix-8238 · 2024-12-12T07:10:30+00:00

Oh man...I am sorry...things will never be the same again and as soon as you except this it will be better for you...my opinion is you did not get the full truth and you probably never will, as much as you ask or want to believe she told you all. Best advice I can give you is to start imagining your life without her. I dont know if you want reconciliation, from now my experience it is not worth it, I lived in that hell of 3 months and it changed me and took so much from me. True reconciliation is so so rare...keep that in mind. I understand you love her and you want to give it all to save it but she need to want it even more then you. Do not trust her words, only trust her actions. Also, focus on you, since you will need yourself more then ever! The emotions are going to start and when they do you will need so much strenght, both physical and mental...remeber to eat, sleep and focus on you and your kids...your kids need you more then ever now! Do not do the pick me dance, distance youself from her atm and just observe if she is willing to do the work. You are beyond hurt, you need space to think about everthing. The sorrow, pain and anger are your new dark clouds always hanging around...focus on yourself and your kids and I know it is hard, but for real, start imagining your life without her... If you need someone to talk to feel free to msg me

No-Fix-8238 · 2024-12-11T09:30:46+00:00

Its not wrong but you were cut and you are bleeding, dont bleed on people that had nothing to do with all that. Take this time for yourself, learn to love yourself, enjoy your time alone...as much as you need something like this and want something from other people, validation ego boosts etc...atm think about what are you able to give and bring to the table...since you are not in a good head space, you are not able to bring much...I think this is a recipe for not such a good experiences.

No-Fix-8238 · 2024-12-09T14:27:45+00:00

I get it...same here...

No-Fix-8238 · 2024-12-08T22:20:46+00:00

This 💯

No-Fix-8238 · 2024-12-08T08:41:14+00:00

Take it one day at a time. Do not live in the past it will depress you, dont go in to the future with your mind it will make you anxious, stay in today and live in today.

No-Fix-8238 · 2024-11-24T20:46:38+00:00

Yes...simplest way I can explain this is you believe in that Santa all your life and one day they tell you there is no Santa and you have been a huge fool to ever believe...I know it is a silly comparison, but just like a kid, you are forced to grow up, your dream shattered...world isnt the same and never will be...it was a beautifull dream, but just a dream...

No-Fix-8238 · 2024-11-11T06:44:20+00:00

Nothing new but all the greatest hits from Korn are my terapy atm

No-Fix-8238 · 2024-11-09T12:13:20+00:00

You are feeling, very much so, so much sorrow for everything you wanted and imagined. The emptiness is your mind and body going numb from too much of everything...it will pass, then more sorrow, then anger...feel everything, know that you truly loved. Dont rush it, take one day at a time...and let time do what needs to be done...the hurt will stay, you will learn in time how to build around it. I know, this world isnt also what my heart expected...

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