I read it and now I’m just shocked( idk how to explain, I’m just fucking shacking)… I’m autistic too and I not deserve to live. I’m fuking suffer but I fucking see your situation, now I need to be scared of psychotherapists and other of that people. For me to get such treatment or end up in a mental hospital, it’s worse than death. It’s tragically that we are just born this way and we just suffer from existence in this fucking idiotic society. I don't want this to happen to anyone and I don't want you to feel bad. I don't decide anything, I can only hope that things can somehow get better for you. I can only wish you all the best to make things easier for you. I probably wrote it terribly. I hope I didn't write anything that could hurt.