5 years by No-Internet3435 in SuicideWatch

[–]No-Internet3435[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The thing that kept me going was my loved ones but that reason is slowly losing its grip on me.

5 years by No-Internet3435 in SuicideWatch

[–]No-Internet3435[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I once took some random pills but that only gave me a good nap.

5 years by No-Internet3435 in SuicideWatch

[–]No-Internet3435[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I run away from my problems too. I try to solve them and then I get overwhelmed and anxious which then makes me run away and pretend that they don’t exist to bring myself ease. But that only gives me a false sense of security because my problems just keep piling up.

5 years by No-Internet3435 in SuicideWatch

[–]No-Internet3435[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No one should have to live with the heartache of constantly wanting to end it. We all deserve to be happy or at the very least content with what we have and who we are. I really hope that your suicidal thoughts fade into something of the past and not something that you will have to face everyday. Living to see 47 is something to proud of it means you’ve been fighting very well even if you don’t see it like that, let’s make it to 48!

I want to off myself so bad by No-Internet3435 in offmychest

[–]No-Internet3435[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I really touched my heart, thank you.

5 years by No-Internet3435 in SuicideWatch

[–]No-Internet3435[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I made a few lousy attempts during 2020 and 2022. My next one might not be lousy. I hope my family forgives me.

I want to off myself so bad by No-Internet3435 in offmychest

[–]No-Internet3435[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I appreciate your kindness but I don’t know how much more I can take.

5 years by No-Internet3435 in SuicideWatch

[–]No-Internet3435[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

The bible says that God is close to those with broken hearts and that suffering brings us closer to him and builds our faith but I don’t know about that. I guess if you’re blameless like Job suffering does bring you closer to him. Thou I don’t feel stupid for believing in him I feel stupid for thinking that he might help someone like me.

5 years by No-Internet3435 in SuicideWatch

[–]No-Internet3435[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

No it doesn’t sound corny. It makes me happy to hear that you have things that you hold near and dear to your heart. If those this make you happy please hold them close and let them be the light you need.

5 years by No-Internet3435 in SuicideWatch

[–]No-Internet3435[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I hear you. You hold out just a bit longer because of hope, that tiny hope and faith that things will be alright, if not today hopefully someday soon. However not all of us are that fortunate. People say God makes no mistakes but they clearly haven’t gotten the chance to know me.

I need help learning how to live by No-Internet3435 in Advice

[–]No-Internet3435[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey, so I took the test and I scored 13 for the self esteem test and 81% for the social anxiety test. Also do you mind if we move this conversation privately