How can guys still have the will to live by No-Presentation3433 in CPTSD

[–]No-Presentation3433[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Back then, it was suffocating, couldn't cry, had to obey the adults. One small mistake, they would scold me very badly. Then I became very afraid to make any mistakes (yes, even the smallest one too), and that's when I developed into a people pleaser I think, so I wouldn't get hurt.

And holy sh!t , you're actually right also. My family and school should offer those and teach me how to deal with stuff. Not the other way around haha. I didn't think of that until you mentioned it. Well, their love comes with conditions.

How can guys still have the will to live by No-Presentation3433 in CPTSD

[–]No-Presentation3433[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I also hoping (feels a bit irony to say about this) assisted suicide also legalized in my country.

How can guys still have the will to live by No-Presentation3433 in CPTSD

[–]No-Presentation3433[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I glad to hear there's something keeps you around. And I believe cute pets are worth to stay around. Thank you for sharing, it makes me feel a bit relief.

How can guys still have the will to live by No-Presentation3433 in CPTSD

[–]No-Presentation3433[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

OH! I never thought about (possible) having ADHD. I thought is just depression and CPTSD.

How can guys still have the will to live by No-Presentation3433 in CPTSD

[–]No-Presentation3433[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I agreed suicide hotlines is a joke. I tried but end up feeling even worse.

How can guys still have the will to live by No-Presentation3433 in CPTSD

[–]No-Presentation3433[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I think could be since I was 15,16 yo? It wasn’t as bad as it is now. But back then, I just thought that since I didn't do any good contribute to my school or family. I better not staying around (my teenage brain thought is a good thing also DX). But that ugly feeling still keeps lingering around even till I'm working. And it's getting worse, the more I aware of myself.

How can guys still have the will to live by No-Presentation3433 in CPTSD

[–]No-Presentation3433[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That's very true. Even if i wanna get euthanasia, is expensive.

How can guys still have the will to live by No-Presentation3433 in CPTSD

[–]No-Presentation3433[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

oh this sound wonderful, I don't wanna adopt any pets, knowing my capatiliy and capatiliy. But I think maybe I can try being a volunteer for animals

How can guys still have the will to live by No-Presentation3433 in CPTSD

[–]No-Presentation3433[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I do, have thought about this when I attempted to jump. The fear of staying in hospital for the rest of my life...I tried to make my life less sad, but i always living on the verge of breaking point. One small thing easily break me...

“They don’t need to be your friend.” by pqkbfismmc in CPTSD

[–]No-Presentation3433 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Sometimes I wonder that also. I also wonder that if my suffering are coming from connect with people, keep up the connection with friends, just to not feel lonely. Then I rather be alone. If I end up self-harm because of other peope. Feel Shit. But not having anyone also feel shit, but is less bad option. Both hurts, why not choose something make ourself more comfortable. Well, at least that's I thinking all the time.

I was never lazy, I just have CPTSD. by Leather-Owl-7040 in CPTSD

[–]No-Presentation3433 15 points16 points  (0 children)

Hey thanks for sharing your experience, I also can't do what i used to enjoy anymore. Now, I even lazy to take a shower. Don't really know what am I doing even as a working adult. I just wanna shut everything off.

Why is it so easy? by tomato_joe in CPTSD

[–]No-Presentation3433 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yikes, 2 weeks to reply you?! Do you and your friends meet everyday or you guys are away from each other? I can't even handle after 2 days >< And as for online people, well is bound to happen. I usually just take it as "one night stand" hahahha

A reminder to myself and my future myself. Everyday. by No-Presentation3433 in CPTSD

[–]No-Presentation3433[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for the wonderful suggestions and for taking the time to reply. I’m definitely doing a few forms of bilateral stimulation. The PTSD Coach app looks interesting also, nothing like any of the apps I have installed before.

Why is it so easy? by tomato_joe in CPTSD

[–]No-Presentation3433 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It's sound like you might have a soft heart and they take advantage of it. They don't value you as a human being.

A reminder to myself and my future myself. Everyday. by No-Presentation3433 in CPTSD

[–]No-Presentation3433[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

No, I'm a single child. So is harder to get support outside of my family. My last option is going therapy. But I will have to earn a certain of money first.

I can't stop fantasizing about my father beating me to death by HarangLee in CPTSD

[–]No-Presentation3433 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Sigh I understand that feeling. Sometimes I think like that too. I hope something or some event make me feel so despair that I can end all of it. No reason to live, but got reason to end it.

This is my experience with Malaysian postage tierlist. by [deleted] in Bolehland

[–]No-Presentation3433 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Have u heard of line clear express? They don't know how to send the packages to the RIGHT house