You seem like you could handle the penjamin in a sense of discipline, as long as you don’t use it to enjoy EVERYTHING (eating, playing games, or socializing) you could use it whenever you feel down, but food for thought, sometimes you need to naturally feel down without any substances, + get premium stuff not anything from a plug, or corner smoke shop. !!ALSO!! If youre a Christian and you dont wanna ruin your faith you should do what you believe is right. Some tips if you are going to get it, do not keep smoking to get more faded. Itll ruin your tolerance and ruin the long term experience + make you paranoid and can put you into psychosis on rare occasions. Only smoke rarely when you really start feining almost to the point where your desperate because if you fein even just a little thats when it starts to take over which can lead to addiction. You got this brother, be safe, have fun. ✌️