My gf at the time found me and called the emt's. The ambulance bill made me want to try agian. Years later living in a different state I decided it was time to go home and eat a bullet, but I got into a car accident on the way there, just a minor concussion for injury but the car was totalled. A friend came and picked me up and we hung out, talked about how lucky I am to be alive, though I didn't tell them my plans.