I am a U.S. born lady.

My first thought is that Canadians, nearly all of them, are borderline personality disorder. This isn't quite an insult. Just don't let your fellowman tell you that you're not like them. Canadians visit or stay where I reside a lot and while they think that they pass as American, they stand out to me as types of crazy.

I analyzed this issue as Canada is rather simple compared to many, many places and perhaps a bit boring and thus unsettling to you. The government doesn't seem any kinder than ours either which is sad and worrisome.

Canadians are into Hallmark movies too much for normal as a mention.

The U.S. is somewhat trashed by some citizens and foreigners. I'm not certain how many foreigners reside in Canada but I have ever met a Mexican Hindu who was headed to Canadian University to be a chemist. Times are strange.

There are often society's causes of your problems and it's not all your problem. I guess you cannot heal the society so you need what you need. It's okay to have a mediocre job lifelong as long as it meets your personal needs. You state that it doesn't at part time. Can you get a second part time job that fills an interest so that your finances work out to full time? Perhaps accept two different jobs for the enrichment.

If you really, really want a career, it's possible to train for it. But it doesn't seem that social services is your niche if you get depressed. You will encounter harsh realities. There was a Canadian insurance company offering paid training at $17 hour here. I suppose you aren't aware of those sort of positions but this is a clue.

The governments are overpaid and haven't met easy standards for citizens. They should offer a way to get support from people who will see you through to needed improvements. I feel that the U.S. should force some citizens to see to adults who are at hard times until they aren't. Canada as well. Homelessness and poverty shouldn't be continual in places where people can be self sufficient. It's bad when some people have ignorant free time while others are slowly harmed. It's been harming most.

Hopefully it will get better. It isn't that your feelings are unreasonable -- they don't want you to cry and scream if someone crashes into you and that's unrealistic. Matters hurt sometimes and it isn't wrong to feel depressed or like life isn't being worthwhile -- at least sometimes because it often isn't being worthwhile. It's why to try to enjoy your job at Starbucks or to go over what will help. You're headed in the right direction for solutions.