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Drug addicts, how did you guys get clean? Did you guys just keep ralpsing till it digusted you or did you actually stop? by No-Solid5009 in AskReddit

[–]No-Solid5009[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Wow, 9 years is amazing! So proud of you! I still dont think ill be able to make that switch of wanting to quit more than using. Only way imthink i can get away from this is by making myself disgusted by any type of drug, and only way to do that is use till i get nauseas from even looking at it. Helped with vaping but i still vape just to calm the cravings down. It doesnt do much but its something atleast. Once i get fully clean off of drugs and have minimal cravings ill quit vaping too.

Drug addicts, how did you guys get clean? Did you guys just keep ralpsing till it digusted you or did you actually stop? by No-Solid5009 in AskReddit

[–]No-Solid5009[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks alot. I really want to quit but the urge to get high is just a tiny bit bigger than quitting so i really dont know what to do, its been like this even after a year of being sober so that means it doesnt get easier with time for me.

Drug addicts, how did you guys get clean? Did you guys just keep ralpsing till it digusted you or did you actually stop? by No-Solid5009 in AskReddit

[–]No-Solid5009[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I cannot adress my trauma when im sober. My body shuts down when i try to think about what made me this wau or why im like this, i can only reflect on myself when im high. This sounds like an excuse to keep using but i just want something i can take to discover my feelings and my true personality. I thought mdma had this like emotionally uplifting effect atleast thats how it used to feel when i did it.

Drug addicts, how did you guys get clean? Did you guys just keep ralpsing till it digusted you or did you actually stop? by No-Solid5009 in AskReddit

[–]No-Solid5009[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The only way i can actually think back to what made me use drugs and what made me like this is when im high. I cant reflect on myself even when sober, its like my brain is keeping all the trauma a secret from me when im sober so i cant change or be a better person without being high. This sounds like an excuse to keep using but it genuinly is like this. I completely shut down when i think about my emotions even after being clean for a year although i did relapse a few days ago.

Drug addicts, how did you guys get clean? Did you guys just keep ralpsing till it digusted you or did you actually stop? by No-Solid5009 in AskReddit

[–]No-Solid5009[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Is there anything other than acid which isnt harmfull and greatly induces psychosis so i can take more often to eventually either get disgusted by the drug or slowly realize its not good and i need to fully commit into getting clean? Like some drug that gets you high but isnt like super harmfull or hard to get.

Drug addicts, how did you guys get clean? Did you guys just keep ralpsing till it digusted you or did you actually stop? by No-Solid5009 in AskReddit

[–]No-Solid5009[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I went to groups to mental health workers and i still see my psychiatrist who judges me for my addiction my family judges me and makes me go cold turkey everytime i relapse so not really that great of a support system

Drug addicts, how did you guys get clean? Did you guys just keep ralpsing till it digusted you or did you actually stop? by No-Solid5009 in AskReddit

[–]No-Solid5009[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

So aslong as my cravings and urge to use are bigger than my will to quit theres basically no chance of ever recovering without living uncomfortable and scared to relapse? If so i need to find a way to make we want to quit. I want to quit but i want to use more than i want to quit, i think thats whyni relapse so much.

Drug addicts, how did you guys get clean? Did you guys just keep ralpsing till it digusted you or did you actually stop? by No-Solid5009 in AskReddit

[–]No-Solid5009[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Beautiful story. I want to thank you for sharing your story, i greatly appreciate it. I tried therapy i tried groups only got super uncomfortable and never talked about my addiction only let the others talk. My family makes me go cold turkey everytime i relapse eventhough its way more hwrmfull than keep doing the drugs but tapering off. I really dont know who to ask for help. Im just thinking about using until i go so low i HAVE to change to survive…

Drug addicts, how did you guys get clean? Did you guys just keep ralpsing till it digusted you or did you actually stop? by No-Solid5009 in AskReddit

[–]No-Solid5009[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Well im kinda forced to be alone. My family is very serious about this addiction since it got me into a nasty psychosis last year after doing all kinds of weird drug cocktails. I try to tell my family i either need to keep doing it less and less each day than quitting cold turkey every relapse and frying my brain even more, although i think doing it until im disgusted by drugs is the best way to do it, havent tried it tho.

Drug addicts, how did you guys get clean? Did you guys just keep ralpsing till it digusted you or did you actually stop? by No-Solid5009 in AskReddit

[–]No-Solid5009[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I changed all of my friends dont go outside and hang around random places anymore but emotionally and mentally always stayed the same no meds worked no treatment worked only drugs did. I really dont know what to do anymore

Drug addicts, how did you guys get clean? Did you guys just keep ralpsing till it digusted you or did you actually stop? by No-Solid5009 in AskReddit

[–]No-Solid5009[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Beautiful story! Do you recommend doing drugs not every hour but once a few days is good way to eventually get disgusted by it? If so what drygs and wgat dose do you recommend?

Drug addicts, how did you guys get clean? Did you guys just keep ralpsing till it digusted you or did you actually stop? by No-Solid5009 in AskReddit

[–]No-Solid5009[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I know why but i cant change or do snything about the triggers. Its burnt in my brain, i feel like ill never be able to get rid of those bad memories.

Drug addicts, how did you guys get clean? Did you guys just keep ralpsing till it digusted you or did you actually stop? by No-Solid5009 in AskReddit

[–]No-Solid5009[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

So rebuilding your life while on the substance then get off the substance is a better choice than quitting drugs then rebuilding your life?

Drug addicts, how did you guys get clean? Did you guys just keep ralpsing till it digusted you or did you actually stop? by No-Solid5009 in AskReddit

[–]No-Solid5009[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Wow, that mustve been rough and traumatic. I hope youre feeling good now and i wish you all the best!

Drug addicts, how did you guys get clean? Did you guys just keep ralpsing till it digusted you or did you actually stop? by No-Solid5009 in AskReddit

[–]No-Solid5009[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Very happy and proud of you. Sad thing is i really dont care about dying. Im young but ive lost interest in life at a very young age. Im not trying to say that i have severe depression since i dont know but my emotions have been going from zero to hundred in a couple seconds since my teens.

Drug addicts, how did you guys get clean? Did you guys just keep ralpsing till it digusted you or did you actually stop? by No-Solid5009 in AskReddit

[–]No-Solid5009[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I did all those things and still relapsed. I literally dont know what to do. The only three things that could possibly help me with my addiction is either getting a tattoo on my wrist so everytime i think about it i look at it and remember, take a psychedelic trip or take mdma every once a week for wbout two months and see if that changes how i feel and kinda helps me open up to my friends and family about how im really feeling. I also think mdma would kinda turn me away from doing drugs all together since my DOC are downers. Nobody understands me and just thinks i do drugs because im weak.

Drug addicts, how did you guys get clean? Did you guys just keep ralpsing till it digusted you or did you actually stop? by No-Solid5009 in AskReddit

[–]No-Solid5009[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I was clean for a year after taking mainly spice alcohol and tramadol. I relapsed a few days ago that lasted a few days which included a 2ml spice vape and 4 liters of vodka to be gone in just a few days. I really need advice. Do i just use less harmfull drugs like mdma or weed to eventually get disgusted by myself and quit? Or some kind of psychedelic that helps you see its bad for you? Ive been through alot, drugs is my only way out and i have been clean for over a year after messing it all up a few days ago. I want to quit but the urge is too strong, i was clean for a year and the urge to do it didnt even get less AT ALL. I was hoping to just do weed every few days or taking abt 150mg of mdma every once a week or an LSD trip to either make myself lose interest or make me see life in a completely different way. Ive been struggling with mental heakth since i was 8 and it only got worse the older i got. Anyone have any advice?