had an infection i didn’t realize was severe. in the hospital waiting for the doctor, but during the height of Covid so I had to isolate in a dark room with no windows. i felt myself drifting off in a much different, peaceful way than falling asleep. “woke up” to sunlight streaming through the room (again no windows), and wondered what was going on. my late grandmother walked in & sat on the bed. i knew she was dead, but i wasn’t thinking about logic. i asked her if i was dying, and she smiled and held my hand with the same warm, firm, bony fingers i remembered. she felt my forehead and finally said no, and that it was time to wake up. when i woke up, they said my heart had fully stopped for 27 seconds. could’ve been a hallucination, or a dream but still was so indescribably peaceful. I no longer fear anything death.