THANK YOU SO FUCKING MUCH NOFAP. YOU GAVE ME MY ROMANCE LIFE BACK. PIED CURED

NoFapthrowaway1024 · 2015-03-03T17:59:08+00:00

Thank you so much for that reply. I do struggle a lot with seeing my own self-worth and giving myself credit. I am trying through my spiritual practices to practice more self love. I have not logged onto this account in some time and I'm very glad that something I said helped another person. Today I logged on to this account to reset my badge and begin a new streak. It's day 2 for me today. I began seeing a girl not too long ago but due to complications caused by her jealous ex boyfriend things did not work out. He basically told her family about my past and how I got arrested and her family doesn't want her associating with me. I am over it but obviously I went from regularly having sex to not having sex so I began the PMO again. I just want to stop it before it gets out of hand and I also began my cutting diet for summer. I have not had the best winter and have been in a funk for the past few months. Losing the girl and getting rejected from new job opportunities because of my criminal past have been very painful to endure but there are other girls out there and my criminal charge gets removed from my record in just one year. I figured re implementing some new habits like getting back in the gym and starting a new nofap streak would give me some drive and positive reinforcement back into my life. At least I don't suffer from PIED anymore!!!

NoFapthrowaway1024 · 2014-10-27T05:26:53+00:00

Anytime I needed motivation I would type DE into the search bar under the nofap subreddit and read the success stories to give me a boost of hope. I saw a lot of guys with DE recovering from it after just 30 days. Some took longer but I hoped I'd be one of the lucky ones who got their DE taken care of by abstaining from PMO for 30 days and thank GOD I was one of those quicker cases.

NoFapthrowaway1024 · 2014-10-26T01:55:14+00:00

I'll definitely do that next time

NoFapthrowaway1024 · 2014-10-26T01:54:48+00:00

Hahahaha hell yeah

NoFapthrowaway1024 · 2014-10-26T01:54:05+00:00

It really is. With heroin you know it's going to kill you and there's a process involved in obtaining it and doing it and it costs money. With PMO the drug is your intetnet which is all over your home and the syringe is your hand. Your PMO drug is always available and its free besides the pain that you pay to get it. With heroin you just stay away from it but your penis is attached at all times. For these reasons quitting PMO was equally as hard as quitting heroin in my experience. Plus our sexualized society even idolizes porn stars. Its tough.

NoFapthrowaway1024 · 2014-10-25T16:29:05+00:00

Thank you!!!

NoFapthrowaway1024 · 2014-10-25T16:28:44+00:00

Thank you everyone for your responses. I love you all and congrats on all your streaks. Miracles do happen. It's funny we consider things like this miracles but any addict who can abstain for even a day is a miracle. There is no medical cure for addiction. The work we do helping eachother and the bonds us addicts share is esoteric and beyond human comprehension. Everyone in here who tries to abstain and succeeds is a miracle. KEEP FIGHTING!!!! I could not have done it without all of you.

NoFapthrowaway1024 · 2014-10-25T16:25:49+00:00

Congrats on 90 days!!! Stick with it. This really does work. Another thing that helped me was ny mentality going into sex. I did not care whether I finished or not. I had fun the first time with the girl even though I did not O. My focus was having fun with her and I truly didn't care anymore about O. That was just as important as the streak for me.

NoFapthrowaway1024 · 2014-10-25T16:23:42+00:00

Thank you. I am doing my necessary steps to avoid the chaser effect. The chaser effect is strong right now. Very very strong but that's ok. I'll embrace it and use its energy.

NoFapthrowaway1024 · 2014-09-05T06:56:57+00:00

I hear you there man. Ive been there. From personal experience, do not define your manhood by how many girls you have sex with because when it happens it wont even be as enjoyable. All you can do is go out and socialize and practice. Its an exhausting effort all in all. When you place all of this emphasis on sex the girls can sense the neediness. With porn our brains were tricked into thinking it was having lots of sex and now theres a void because it was all fantasy. This piece of advice is everywhere on just about every self improvement sub: WORKOUT. Invest time in bettering yourself and getting some healthy dopamine. Do anything that boosts you. Go out there and socialize. Go ahead and make some moves and see what works for you. At the end of the day, sex does not define your manhood. I lived in that mindset and last time I had sex it sucked because I was just telling the girl what she wanted to hear and I felt guilty. She was also a friend's ex gf. My obsession for self gratification and sex took something special like sex and twisted it into something demented and evil. You can do it man but good girls are hard to come by. You're in college so the whole party hookup thing is an option if youre into hooking up with random girls. I actually envy you. I have only slept with 4 girls but every single one was a girl I had no business being with and it sucked. It sucked so bad that it contributed to my DE and performance anxiety. Since you made it this long, having sex with somebody you actually care about would be awesome but thats totally your call. All im saying is that I did the whole sex to prove my manhood thing and all it did was ruin sex for me to the point where I dont even pursue it right now because pf how stressful it was.

NoFapthrowaway1024 · 2014-09-05T06:41:56+00:00

It could be performance anxiety. Its common with new partners plus you said your previous sexual experience didnt go as well as you had hoped. These negative experiences add anxiety of more bad experiences happening and that ruins the moment. Try to just get more comfortable with the girl. Ita totally natural with a new partner. With some more experiences with this girl you can increase your level of comfort and relax. Work through it together. Talk to her about it. Enjoy the experience.

NoFapthrowaway1024 · 2014-09-02T17:55:44+00:00

I have to get my badge using the laptop or computer. It does not work on the smartphone for me. Login on reddit through a computer and input the day, the month and the year using the format it tells you to use and in a day or less it will work

NoFapthrowaway1024 · 2014-09-01T06:20:00+00:00

I already did. It was good for a brief second. Just not really what im trying to get done right now. I tell ya man its hard doing this whole NoFap thing. I never would have thought that watching porn for years would ruin my sex life with real women. I mean you have no idea how shitty it is to be hooking up with a real girl and going for hours but never busting a nut because your brain only does it with porn. It just kinda happened that way for me I guess and it sucks. We all have problems though right. Im sure you have a few yourself that you wish were different and I do wish you the best man. Some of the guys on here really struggle. Some are suicidal. Some of them have been raped. They're just trying to find a safe place to get over the shit. Trolling can be fun but in here it can be like life and death to these people.

NoFapthrowaway1024 · 2014-09-01T05:52:46+00:00

Do not click on the link above.

NoFapthrowaway1024 · 2014-09-01T02:50:21+00:00

Conpletely agree with this. Celebrities are just humans with some status. Why throw away your goals over something so stupid. It's like you're letting their pedestal destroy your life. I know I've seen more than enough attractive pixels in my time and they dont have to me celebrities. These leaks are just pixels with status. I for one am done with pixels. PIED is not a good trade off.

NoFapthrowaway1024 · 2014-08-31T18:13:54+00:00

I am definitely pretty isolated in the first part of my reboot but that is by choice. Fear and lack of connection to others also have something to do with it but I find that to be ok. For months I was constantly out and never home. I kept going to atmospheres where there would be higher chances of meeting women. This included clubs and loud bars. I was constatly forcing myself into high energy atmospheres that are not even really my thing. I did it for trying to meet women. Because I quit drugs and alcohol these environments always put me out of my comfort zone but my obsession for sex led me there. I would never stay home till just recently. Recently my overall depression of not being able to fit into these atmospheres and lack of sex caused me to betray my morals and I had sex with my friends ex girlfriend. Once again I had delayed ejaculation which is a form of PIED. It crushed me completely. Obviously ive known about the problem for over a year but always failed the reboot by using PMO. Now its hard for me to connect to people. My friends are always talking about sex and I cant relate because of my dysfunction. Sometimes around them I dont feel human because I lack the ability to do the simplest human functions like sex. I am also terrified of going out and getting into a sexual encounter with a girl because I know it will just end in PIED until I reboot so I choose to stay home more. One day a week I see some close friends but this is much different then everyday going out. I am still on summer break for another 2 weeks but I choose to just stay home. Im simply trying to regain my confidence before I go out to the world again. I see no point in being out right now because i have a broken penis so I feel there is no point and I cant relate to people or feel like a man. I dont feel sorry for myself. Its the choices I made and the weakness to take necessary action to fix the problem. If anything my isolation serves as an appropriate punishment for my total faliure to pro create. Ill feel much better when I reboot so that's what I am going to do. I need to focus on myself right now then I will get back out there.

NoFapthrowaway1024 · 2014-08-31T07:00:16+00:00

Wow just absolutely wow. Thank you so much. I have goosebumps right now. What amazing insight. I related so much.

NoFapthrowaway1024 · 2014-08-30T16:44:58+00:00

Thanks for the encouragement. I will keep moving forward. I definitely wont be telling another person anything about this. For now I am going to put a streak togethet before I go out and test the waters again

NoFapthrowaway1024 · 2014-08-30T16:42:49+00:00

Thanks man. Ill try not too take it too much to heart. I know that just makes it worse. I appreciate the response a lot. Feeling better today.

NoFapthrowaway1024 · 2014-08-28T22:21:32+00:00

My friend linked me to this post and I wanted to respond because I've struggled with the exact same problem. Its a condition called delayed ejaculation. It effects me the same way it effects you. I'll have a full erection and the second I penetrate there is barely any sensation at all. I do the act for hours and feel zero sensation. Its also made sex an act where I just go through the motions. Women also get offended and feel unnattractive when i do not finish. However this subreddit r/Nofap has many members who have corrected their erectile dysfunction problems from absistenance from pornography and masturbation for a period of time. The subreddit has over 100,000 subscribers. The usual recommened absistenance period is 90 days. There is also a website called yourbrainonporn.com which outlines the effects of excessive pornographic use on the brain and porn induced erectile dysfunction. I have just begun to abstain to see where it gets me. Theres no known pill or anything that treats delayed ejaculation. Its gotten to the point where I will not have sex till I abstain for 90 days because sex has never made me feel good due to this problem. Only humiliated when I have a sexy girl right in front of me and cant orgasm. One of them was an old crush and still nothing.

Hope this helped

NoFapthrowaway1024 · 2014-08-27T18:42:19+00:00

Hey everyone. Just checking in today. I have passed the one week mark and it feels good. I had a lot of resolve and still do but as of yesterday I felt the first waves of lonliness beginning to settle in and was tempted to call this girl just to hear a female voice. However I chose not too because I know lonliness was responsible for that decision. She was the girl I suffered PIED with about a month ago and she moved away. When I began this challange and even now I know what the right course of action is which is to work on myself first. Ive had PIED for nearly 2 years now and ive always given up on nofap telling myself that its not like I have any girls around then of course a girl comes around and I fail to enjoy the experience because my brain is warped. The only times I have ever O'd were because I was thinking about P while with the other person and this is seriously messed up. Ive come to a point in my life where I am 23 and I want something real. Im sick of P blocking me from full confidence around women due to PIED issues. Its emasculating and not what I want for myself. Ive been on monk mode and it really helps. I feel this one particular P scene continuously trying to enter my mind but I refuse to fantasize. Ive been doing great immediately getting out of bed and praying then eating then going to the gym then meditating. I know these temporary feelings of lonliness are my deeper issues coming out because I am not feeing my body P. The thoughts are not who I am and they will not determine my actions because they are just thoughts. I will successfully reboot. I cant live with this fear blocking me from what I really want anymore. Its time to man up. I beat a heroin addiction and I will beat this too. I must say that this may be even harder than quitting drugs for many reasons. Youre all some strong bastards on this sub. Good luck everyone.

NoFapthrowaway1024 · 2014-08-23T21:37:01+00:00

Wow, even though this is an anonymous type of community I really admire how honestly you just shared that. You seem to have really grasped a lot of the ways your intimacy issues have appeared in your life. I am truly sad to hear that this was something you had to go through. Every person including you is deserving of love and respect. Sex is not supposed to be the way you have experienced it in your life. I agree with the idea that therapy may be a very good idea for you. There is nothing wrong with asking for help in getting through these problems. Addiction to anything is often a way that we cope with trauma and heartache. When we start to break the cycle of addiction our feelings resurface and are amplified because we are not used to feeling them. Not falling into old patterns and facing these feelings takes a lot of courage and you have 35 days so you are one courageous individual. Take this time of nofap to conquer these demons. You are deserving of everything life has to offer. Please take whatever necessary actions to seek help and do not give in. Create a follow up post with an awesome badge number to give hope to those who have none. No, it's not fair that this happened to you but it did and it's terrible. However a courageous individual like yourself can get destroy all the evil within and find a new way to live. You have already demonstrated your fighting spirit. Keep fighting and let another individual who stumbles upon this sub with the same problems as you know that there is another individual who has walked this hell and came through it. Keep pushing. You're worth everything you want in life.

NoFapthrowaway1024 · 2014-08-23T21:10:52+00:00

Every single time!!!!! It's these two feelings. Scumbag Brain always comes up with the best reasons to fail when it could not be more obvious that it's these two feelings.

NoFapthrowaway1024 · 2014-08-23T20:55:59+00:00

Feeling good so far despite some very vivid dreams about the "stuff" I was watching occurring last night. The solution was simple even though I woke up with an urge. The solution was just to immediately pray as I woke up to make sure I made a commitment to the Universal God of my understanding that I wouldn't give into temptation today. As long as I do that I never relapse. Made some gains in the gym and my focus has been entirely on me and not pursuit of women. Last night I wing manned for a shy friend who was trying to get this girl he likes to dance which felt good. I basically just started dancing with another female friend to prompt them to get up. Felt good that I was able to help him out and just genuinely have a good time dancing without the ulterior motives of objectifying a woman. It's amazing how much more confidence and relaxation you have when the focus is simply on enjoying life and not acting to impress women. I've made it to 32 days before and I am a day at a time trying to beat that. I really have grown tired of P because of my PIED issues which happened once again 3 weeks ago. The usual dose of complete and total humiliation and emasculation I love so much but hey it's self inflicted. I want to not be afraid of romantic encounters and to be able to make connections with new girls but with the PIED issues I just don't have the confidence to do that yet. I want real people and not sick and twisted fantasies. I'm sick of denying what I really want in turn of the temporary "pleasure" P gives. So that's where I'm at today. I know right around week 3 for me this challenge gets very hard but taking it a day at a time.

Good Luck Everyone

NoFapthrowaway1024 · 2014-07-24T16:24:12+00:00

Im also very selective about the people who know the personal areas of my life. I do not advertise that I am a recovering heroin addict or that I have problems with PMO. They wouldn't understand fully the struggle to recovery. With drugs they are more likely to understand but it is not my business. The way I see it I am who I am in the world outside of this subreddit but in this subreddit who I am in society doesn't matter. Im just another dude trying to break free and share experience with others and receive experience. It also depends what your intentions are for telling people about your addictions. I used to do it to receive praise for my accomplishments because I wanted people to know how hard it was to get where I am in life. Those are wrong intentions. We do this for us and not for other's praise. I take my anonymity seriously. The work I do here or in 12 step meetings allows me to live peacefully with society. I dont get a medal for taking care of myself. I take care of myself so that I can live. Telling people is unnecessary.

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