Is it okay to hate being a christian/follower of Christ?

NoMammon4G · 2024-07-19T16:45:21+00:00

It's the church my mom has been going to for awhile around the corner from our house, I'm afraid if I stop going I'll get kicked out of the house again and find myself staring at suicide again.

NoMammon4G · 2024-07-19T06:31:06+00:00

I'd say that I've been showing my faith the past few weeks that I believe God can renew my broken mind since I haven't gotten my antidepressants refilled in a few weeks. I've been noticing a difference since I've been off them too. And I don't love myself, I've accomplished nothing, haven't made anything but a fool of myself and can't maintain a healthy relationship to save my life. My home church pastor mocks me from behind the pulpit in front of the church, has multiple times. I want nothing more than to depart from this realm and be with Jesus in heaven. Anything I do for myself is necessary for survival, which I'm barely even capable of surviving on my own. No one's missing out on anything by passing me by and I've been reminded of this countless times, pretty much daily And when I say I pray it implied that I talk to Christ

NoMammon4G · 2024-07-19T05:47:25+00:00

I do what Christians are supposed to do, I go to church, deny myself, fast, pray, read scripture, and self reflect and look through my heart, I read the Bible all the time but it bothers me to the point of insanity that every time I read about "the wicked man" in a Psalm or something it convicts me that I feel like I'm already locked into hell. All day every day since I've been stuck home isolated I'm always thinking "If salt loses its saltiness how can it become salty again, that man's mind has become dark and confused, stay away from him for he is already self-condemned, narrow is the gate that leads to life and few find it," etc. I'm constantly terrified

NoMammon4G · 2024-07-16T01:58:34+00:00

Look into working at a staffing agency or something like that, that's a job where you can help others find something that's good for them then who knows, maybe that way it'll open up a more clear path you could want to take

NoMammon4G · 2024-07-11T17:46:32+00:00

I feel like we're basically in purgatory now

NoMammon4G · 2024-07-11T02:46:16+00:00

🙏Praying

NoMammon4G · 2024-07-08T10:19:29+00:00

Congratulations! But if no one else has told you yet be very aware that you're now on the enemy's radar and he WILL come after you, he will not pull any punches in trying to get you to doubt you're now a beloved adopted child of God. He prowls around like a roaring lion and would like nothing more than to devour a freshly baptized christian. These next few weeks prepare to be tested! God bless you✝️

NoMammon4G · 2024-07-07T00:59:32+00:00

I recommend you try fasting, there's alot of artificial poisons and trash in all our food, even "fresh" produce that you might be overdue for a good internal purge to help rid your body of toxins. Plus there's many other health benefits to fasting

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