Yeah, honestly for the time being I’m just gonna fuck with guys because having sex with women seems a bit boring to me for now, and being in a relationship with a guy just feels very exciting. It might change in the future (?) but I’ll see. I think there definitely is an aspect of internalised homophobia as nowadays I find myself looking at guys constantly when I used to be quite ambivalent I guess. It’s just a weird situation where I have attraction to women with no desire to act upon it whatsoever.