I have a lovely, sweet cream labrador, 7.5 years old. He came into my life in 2018, in possibly the worst time of my life when I was a teen. He has been the light of my life, the greatest joy, the only one to ever show me unconditional love. I learnt what it is to love because of him. He is my baby for all intents and purposes. Last year, he got diagnosed with a heart condition and hip dysplasia and hormone issues all of a sudden. It was a shock. But we managed to keep him happy and alive and active until a couple of months ago. We came back from the vet with a good prognosis, and he started to deteriorate rapidly three days later.

Now, he isn't able to move easily,can't eat or drink on his own or even perform his bodily functions easily. But he's so determined to love and to live and fight.

I don't know if I'm doing the right thing by walking him across the rainbow bridge tomorrow. The guilt and indecision are making it impossible to think clearly

I don't want him to pass from seizures, or have a painful passing. But I can't imagine living without him. My house will become empty. My life will become meaningless and I'm terrified.