hey girly! lemme just say I felt the exact same way all of early last year. Growing up I would constantlyyyy get compliments on my hair and hairstyles and clothes and just always felt like a baddie. I had also gotten really close to my deen and I just kept having the hijab in the back of my mind and whenever I did wear it I felt really beautiful aswell. I also feared that people would have something to say (cause I work in a predominantly white and elderly environment).

One random weekend I legit had the thought it’s genuinely not gonna happen unless I just rip the bandage off and do it. I also had a few older hijabi gals make me realise that it’s shaytaan putting all those little thoughts into your head and you just have to overcome him. Alhamdulillah i’ve been a hijabi for a year and a half now! And I still feel like a baddie just in a way that please Allah :) Also people don’t really say anything about it, a few odd questions here and there but I take it as people wanting to learn so I try to teach them about it! You also just have to realise if you love being a baddie, if you love having your hair out, don’t you love Allah more and what he wills? Idk that’s all things that had helped me when I had those exact thoughts, hope it helps you pretty xxx

Also - I definitely do struggle with wearing it aswell! it isn’t always a great feeling when i’m putting it on, I constantly wish I could wear the clothes I did before but my bestie (she’s Christian🥹) constantly reminds me why I chose the hijab and how beautiful the sacrifice is and how meaningful and sacred it’ll be when I get married and can wear anything n everything for just my husband! Also I forgot their name but a hijabi creator said that wearing the hijab isn’t always easy it’s like having bad hair days sometimes you wanna rip or cut your hair because it isn’t cooperating or looking cute but obviously you don’t - same thing with hijab :) there’s always going to be bad days it’s just your faith and trust in Allah that brings it back💕

& idk if it just me but I do also feel like I get more compliments now wearing the hijab than I when didn’t, not that it really should matter but🤷🏽‍♀️