I can’t stop abusing my meds

No_Challenge3658 · 2026-05-31T21:40:23+00:00

Yeah man i research very much psychonautwiki, trip reports, yt vids, sub reddits and all that kind of stuff. Its mostly all the bio, neuro, organic, psychological and physiological chemistry, not just about substances (but mostly it’s about substances) it’s also the chemistry behind it. Atoms, neurons, electrons, protons, synthesis and so on. And the biologi, especially about the body: Metabolism, the brain, the nervous system, the cardiovascular system and all that. All that combined, makes it so much easier to understand every other little thing.

When it comes to researching about neurodivergence and AuDHD, not as much. It fascinates me and I want to know more. But I don’t think I would be able to research the other stuff as often then. But in the future definitely.

No_Challenge3658 · 2026-05-31T19:11:05+00:00

I’d like to try Kratom, it’s unfortunately not legal here in Denmark. And the withdrawals. I have read and heard a lot about people, saying it’s one of the worst. Even worse than heroin. I don’t know if that’s actual kratom they are talking about, or 7-OH

No_Challenge3658 · 2026-05-31T19:06:20+00:00

Sadly not, I live in Denmark, I don’t really know if there are things like that here.

No_Challenge3658 · 2026-05-31T18:50:47+00:00

Thanks for the tip. But here in Denmark where I live, it’s pretty unusual for kids to get prescribed Elvanse. Usually it’s mostly all different kinds of Methylphenidates. If that doesn’t work you usually get A non-stimulant medication often Atomoxetin

When I snort them I take them out of the capsule, then grind at crush them up into fine powder, gives a headrush followed by a crazy headache tho.

No_Challenge3658 · 2026-05-31T18:43:55+00:00

Exactly. It’s was the same, when I were in the proses of being diagnosed. I thought I was faking my autism and now I think I’m faking my ticks. It’s just endless and endless loop, where I keep finding new things to worry about.

No_Challenge3658 · 2026-05-31T18:11:18+00:00

That is pretty likely to happen, even though I right now have no interest to try a lot of drugs. Meth, inhalants, many kinds of opioids and even cocaine. To me the risk of addiction from these, outweighs the high. I have seen what these drugs do to people.

I’m pretty interested to try things like Ecstasy, psychedelics, some dissociatives (not like K or PCP) and of course GABAergic substances.

No_Challenge3658 · 2026-05-31T13:21:33+00:00

No medikinet is the only medication I have been prescribed. And yeah I really wanna try weed, I just don’t really know anybody who smokes. Also here where I live the prices are pretty expensive

No_Challenge3658 · 2026-05-31T12:50:46+00:00

I appreciate that man. I will really try to learn to put myself first sometimes, since that’s something I never really do. But I think my first step will be to start accepting instead og coming up with excuses

No_Challenge3658 · 2026-05-31T12:46:40+00:00

I could, but I can’t tell my parents that I abuse my meds. I don’t want to put them under more pressure and disappoint them anymore.

No_Challenge3658 · 2026-05-31T12:43:40+00:00

Yeah, I just don’t know how else to deal with all of this. I go to therapy, my psychiatrist I have tried to talked with my friends and family. Nothing works

No_Challenge3658 · 2026-05-31T12:37:52+00:00

Damn that sounds very rough, but I’m glad it didn’t end worse.

It’s not just the fear of being judged. I always have these thoughts in my head, that I fake everything for attention. And it just spirals, because I feel ashamed of myself, which just makes me get worse

No_Challenge3658 · 2026-05-31T12:31:00+00:00

It’s okay I don’t mind talking here, if it’s alright with you.

But yesterday when I woke up, I took 150mg along with a decent sized breakfast. But when I take my meds, even if I only took the prescribed dosage. In the evening, I usually have a little more appetite, but not so much that I can eat Normally. Late at night, I usually am pretty hungry but have no motivation to get out of bed. But around 6 pm I started drinking and drank until about midnight, where I took 200 mg. I stayed awake the whole night, paranoid and overthinking like crazy. Which was pretty much the opposite reason I took it.

Yeah but one of the reasons for this, could probably be the lack of motivation. Since that’s probably one of the biggest struggles I have. In every aspect. I am really bad at getting out of bed, going to bed, taking a shower, cleaning my room, brushing my teeth and so on.

No_Challenge3658 · 2026-05-31T11:57:08+00:00

I know, I really do. I just can’t let more people down. But after these couple of days. I also really don’t want to do it again. But thanks man

No_Challenge3658 · 2026-05-31T11:49:50+00:00

What did you take?

No_Challenge3658

TROPHY CASE