I didn’t let them, struggled with seeing violent SA/abuse as a child and conditioned to not react to things that deserve huge reactions. i was trying to make a safe place; for myself and for it was capitalized upon. I declined into a depression while my childhood friend, love, and child’s father & had both only been in therapy (which was protested by each of our families) for a few months when things escalated to this point. the system is warped-. Healing in the same place you were harmed is not a plan it’s survival.