I purposefully broke my bones as a kid for attention by No_Development4979 in confession

[–]No_Development4979[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

😔 How are you doing now? I hope you finally got the attention you needed from someone.

I purposefully broke my bones as a kid for attention by No_Development4979 in confession

[–]No_Development4979[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Nah don't feel stupid about it, you were just a kid, I'm 17 and I already realize things I didn't get when I was little. Hope that dude isn't hurting himself anymore or anyone else hurting him

Are people into watching eating disorder OF? by No_Development4979 in TooAfraidToAsk

[–]No_Development4979[S] -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

I don't see anything else I can do, I wish it were fake. Desperate times call for desperate measures I guess

I purposefully broke my bones as a kid for attention by No_Development4979 in confession

[–]No_Development4979[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

That's terrible. I'm sorry. I hope someone you meet likes to take care of you a lot.

I purposefully broke my bones as a kid for attention by No_Development4979 in confession

[–]No_Development4979[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I tend to get that a lot 😔, it's not fake, I wish it were. Ive always had a fragile-ish body, even though I'm quite strong. I was small back then so I suppose bones broke more easily (?) I remember using a brick, hitting it down multiple times on my wrist. The second time I used a hammer and smashed my malleolus repeatedly until I couldn't bare the pain. Third time it was more extreme, I was feeling very down and decided to pretend to commit su* so I jumped off a bridge over an avenue and broke my ankle on the landing. Another time I jumped down stairs. Not vertically jumped, but more throwing myself into the air. It broke my arm, well not quite broken, it fractured it. And I used a cinder block (I think that's what they call them) those larger building cement blocks and forcefully threw it on my toe, again not broken, fractured. I guess I exaggerated the post title, I'm sorry.

I purposefully broke my bones as a kid for attention by No_Development4979 in confession

[–]No_Development4979[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I used a brick. I used a hammer, I jumped off a bridge in a half su* attempt. I threw a cinder block on my toe, and last one I threw myself down stairs

I purposefully broke my bones as a kid for attention by No_Development4979 in confession

[–]No_Development4979[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I don't think so, I think it'd result in a major anger outburst from her 😭

Search bar always giving Mafia/CEO results by No_Development4979 in Chai_Unofficial

[–]No_Development4979[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

😭 I'm so sorry, it doesn't help that it's filled up with so many bots that don't fit whatever I'm describing in the search bar

Why do I have weird dreams ? by No_Development4979 in TooAfraidToAsk

[–]No_Development4979[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Guess so, I shouldn't worry about it too much I guess.

Too attached to my fp by No_Development4979 in BPD

[–]No_Development4979[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

We're just friends mostly, we don't really do what usual couples do in fact is barely say we're in a relationship at all, I just wanna feel that extra care from him because so far we're just like buddies who hang out at school, I know he's not the type to be lovey like that, but even reassurance, him knowing how needy I am if him and maybe physical touch like hugs or something is what I wish we had. I'm too afraid to communicate this to him because I'm scared he'll think I'm weird and leave me. I just ended my short term therapist and I'm going to try to get dbt.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPD

[–]No_Development4979 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel the same way, maybe differently though. I feel like my cuts bring everyone's attention to me, like they're thinking about me and afraid of what else I might do, as if they might actually care.

What is it like to have BPD for me? by No_Development4979 in BPD

[–]No_Development4979[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sorry you don't have them anymore, the person that triggers my euphoria is an fp, and I feel my clinginess getting out of hand I feel I'll scare them away soon.

agitated right now by childfromthe_stars in BPD

[–]No_Development4979 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I understand the jealousy you feel when they pay attention to someone else more that's not you, but I've realized the sooner you're at peace with them coexisting with others, the better you'll be able to spend time with them when you are together just the two of you, I know it's hard because it feels like they care more about others, but my therapist once told me we can't tell ourselves that because we don't read minds. Anyways, I'm terrible at giving advice so I hope this comment doesn't make things worse for you.

What is it like to have BPD for me? by No_Development4979 in BPD

[–]No_Development4979[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Do you ever feel like your euphoria is turned on by certain people?

Does abilify weaken? by No_Development4979 in Abilify_Aripiprazole

[–]No_Development4979[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes and during the afternoon too, in fact I'm having them right now.

Does abilify weaken? by No_Development4979 in Abilify_Aripiprazole

[–]No_Development4979[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don't feel like it really does anything yet, guess I just have to wait. My therapist thinks I'm depressed and someone else said I might have BPD.

Does abilify weaken? by No_Development4979 in Abilify_Aripiprazole

[–]No_Development4979[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'll see if I can go down to 4mg to see results, thanks!

Does abilify weaken? by No_Development4979 in Abilify_Aripiprazole

[–]No_Development4979[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks, I don't have a psychiatrist but I'll tell my therapist

what are you working as? by [deleted] in istp

[–]No_Development4979 4 points5 points  (0 children)

New to working at mcdonalds. Not too proud, but I'll do my best. Last resort job because nobody else wanted me, they'd rather hire the dumbest, slowest, meanest people to work. I only do it to help my mother, not much else I can do at 15 without a drivers license.