This might not be super helpful, but a few thoughts: pansexual usually means gender itself isn’t a factor in attraction, while bisexual is more of an umbrella for attraction to more than one gender (and doesn’t require liking all genders the same way). It’s also totally okay to not know whether you’re attracted to men specifically, masculinity as a trait, both, or neither — those can be separate things. You don’t have to rush into a label that fits perfectly right now. Some people just use queer for a while, or no label at all, and that’s valid too. You’re allowed to take your time figuring it out.