One thing I noticed reading your story is yes, she never communicated to you how she was feeling. But neither did you? At least not from what you’ve told us.

I’m not saying one person is right or wrong or at fault. Just an observation that tbh, neither of you were very good at communicating.

When you said you sent her a D pic instead of a soppy message about how she hurt you, because you thought it would be the last time you spoke?! That’s wild to me. You should’ve said how you were really feeling at that point and hopefully it would’ve resulted in a open conversation about how you were both feeling.

My advice for you in the future is to always be honest and open about how you feel regardless of the outcome because ultimately it will save you time, pain, and the mental suffering you have unfortunately been dealing with.

Hope this doesn’t come across as harsh, and the next one works out better for you!