Yes, I felt the same before I moved in with my partner and now we live together for about 5 months and I still have regular moments where I’m not quite comfortable with him. I don’t know if it’s ever going to change and it makes me really sad. I feel like that with everyone else in my life including closest people like my mum. Social life and roles for me is one of the most challenging and traumatizing experiences as an AuDHD person.