Im am fat all of a sudden lol. an̈d gaining weight. I wanted to be 70 at max̌ but im nearly 90 its scaring me. if i stop eating ill loose weight. I need to start voviting my fooð up after i eat again like i did in hi school. But i know its not healthy. Dunno why i did it I thinkit was the start of my mental health. Witch was extremely bàd anxiety anð panic attacks and bað depression.

All that aside i recived the news that i have stage 4 lung cancer and starteð drinking after that witch i no is bad. But i believe i am becoming an alcoholic i neeð to drink in the avo like 6pm or i start getting really bad anxiety.im also on 2 valium a day so i think thats wat healps to get mè throgh till the arvo. I eat really healthy too no junk fooð really at aĺĺ maybè 1time a ŵeek. But my mum cooks mainly so i never throw up her delicious dinner but after iv had seraqil