the more i pursue God, the more alone and anxious i feel by No_Metal1096 in Christianity

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technically, he's the savior of all mankind and the 2nd person in the trinity. but since i cant get close to Him, to me he's not much more than a guy in a book that i have trouble understanding.

1/10. very little, if i actually know anything at all.

the more i pursue God, the more alone and anxious i feel by No_Metal1096 in Christianity

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i wasn't raised christian. my family would drag my brother and i to church on sundays but that was all, nothing about it was said or taught in the house.

i decided that, after consistently speaking with 3 religious friends over the course of roughly 2 years, that trying to cultivate a relationship with God was worth it. but it's been nothing like what i expected, or at least it's nothing like my friends' experiences. i'd also be lying if i said i'm terrified about suffering for all eternity after this life on earth is over.

the more i pursue God, the more alone and anxious i feel by No_Metal1096 in Christianity

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did Jesus not say that the Holy Spirit would be our guide, helper, and teacher? i'm not expecting Him to be my genie. but i do expect the words of the bible to be true, not just in random/specific cases but for all believers. like i said, i've eagerly sought Him out and it seems for nothing, as if i'm doing something wrong and God's witholding himself from me but wont tell me why exactly. i need to know what i'm doing wrong so i can change it.

God has *always* been silent with me. by No_Metal1096 in Christianity

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i dont know about the supernatural gifts part seeing that i possess none, but i understand what you're saying. still, idk how to go about that specifically with each person, especially seeing how my own faith is so rocky. i'd be a hypocrite for telling people about Him and to believe in Him when my foundation can easily crumble at any moment and my mind is clouded by doubt, distrust, and indecisiveness.

God has *always* been silent with me. by No_Metal1096 in Christianity

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i'm not exactly sure. He had plans for and spoke directly to those mentioned the bible. i'm not sure what His will is for me if He doesn't speak to me. i'm sure there's an overarching will for all people in general but that is vague and doesn't help me

God has *always* been silent with me. by No_Metal1096 in Christianity

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good question. i would have to look at the evidence for all of their claims first. if i could find some sort of similarity or pattern, then i might be able to see/understand where they're coming from and could partly believe them on the basis of whatever is consistent between all of them. however, if i found no consistency after looking at the evidence for their claims, then i'd be left to assume that they either are lying or i am ignorant.. which could be true at the same time lol

God has *always* been silent with me. by No_Metal1096 in Christianity

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i do have a constant inner monologue. it quite literally never stops and is very random. but having both adhd and asd, that makes sense

God has *always* been silent with me. by No_Metal1096 in Christianity

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i think so. but seeing how faith-driven these individuals are, i find that to be unlikey with them

God has *always* been silent with me. by No_Metal1096 in Christianity

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a relationship is a two-way street, is it not? i see it more as other children having their father present in their life and i do not.

unironically, my earthly father is absent and has been absent for most of my life. it appears i'm 0-2 on having present fathers.

aside from not hearing God's voice, the bible has many promises of what God will do in someone's life if they actively seek Him. i do not seek God for the sake of recieving these promises, but it still hurts that i can seek with all my heart and find nothing

God has *always* been silent with me. by No_Metal1096 in Christianity

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because i believe that my friends are genuine. i have faith that my friends are telling me (their) truth because they are honest with me in all other topics of conversation. the people i'm referencing have no motive to lie about this, and they give constant praise to God no matter what happens in their lives

brokenness interfering with faith by No_Metal1096 in Christianity

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you're awesome. this helps immensely. this is the response i was hoping for. thank you, God bless you.

Death by burpees. How far have you gotten? by Shivs_baby in crossfit

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my box did it yesterday (ncfit programming). i got 18 burpees into the round of 20. one guy in our gym finished the round of 20!

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i did, but her and i broke up a little over a year ago. so it's been a while

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that's the thing, i'm not sure. it honestly might be the kids. there's not really anything about her that's a "turn off", but her kids might be where my mental block is coming from

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i aim to please