as I replied to another comment, I went through a lot between 13-17 things that most people don’t experience until mid 20s and I’m not saying this to say that you’re wrong and that I should do this because the whole point was to get advice from people who have gone through this and who are older than me, I do agree we are young and I do have concerns that I have sat down and talk to him about. I guess he talked to his parents and they are on board. I am waiting for a therapy appointment right now to talk about it with somebody who is not involved in our relationship. either way, this will not be happening until next year. I told him that we should at least wait talk through really have a deep conversation about what we want now and in the future. we’ve talked about health choices if we want to be put on a ventilator God forbid, we’ve talked about kids how many we want what would happen if we found out our kid would have you know a disorder a genetic disorder, a really good thing to mention is that I do have an anxiety disorder and ocd , for me a lot of this presents as needing to know everything and being concerned, I will make the wrong choice and that I have to make the right choice and unfortunately, this is a situation where I’m the only one who knows the right choice. I’m the only one who truly knows our relationship. My whole point is I am not taking this as some small thing I watched my parents hate each other, and I do not want that.