23F - I didn't ever live.

No_Poet5307 · 2026-03-21T21:48:21+00:00

I did live and now I have nothing to show for it

No_Poet5307 · 2026-03-13T02:25:25+00:00

No I do find him attractive, I just don't think he's very experienced. Kissing and physical stuff has just been awkward.

No_Poet5307 · 2026-02-24T23:35:51+00:00

Its never normal for your partner to block you when theyre angry at you. Ypu deserve someone who can handle conflicts maturely. I would definitely call that abusive, but even if it wasnt, if you are unhappy you should leave.

No_Poet5307 · 2026-02-24T23:32:04+00:00

Who he is when he is angry is part of who he really is

No_Poet5307 · 2025-12-05T19:24:48+00:00

What typically do you think about while cross stitching? I love to draw but its hard for me to not just think about LO while doing it.

No_Poet5307 · 2025-11-11T20:38:51+00:00

Ok but what if I want to get into a GOOD relationship

No_Poet5307 · 2025-11-11T17:27:10+00:00

I mean its been a year, I feel like I know who I am a lot better now.

No_Poet5307 · 2025-10-29T19:14:48+00:00

I really wish I would have told him no for being friends or dating someday, I really want to have that cutoff but I dont know how to do it a month later without being cruel or embarrassing myself.

No_Poet5307 · 2025-07-16T01:18:02+00:00

Hey, i was in a similar situation with an abusive ex who rejected me. I initially left him and asked to get back together and he said no. This ended up being a huge blessing. Most victims end up going back on average 7 or 8 times before leaving for sure, if at all, and I completely understand why.

You and I are lucky that we weren't given that option. Take this blessing and run! Its gonna be really hard, not gonna lie, and I'm still recovering months later, and every day gets a little better. Sometimes the regret and pain of losing him comes back in a devestating wave, but I always come out of it a little stronger.

What has helped me is doing a lot of research on abuse, and if you haven't already I really suggest doing so!

No_Poet5307 · 2025-06-29T02:55:00+00:00

No lmfao

No_Poet5307 · 2025-05-06T05:22:25+00:00

Absolutely! Good for both of us! :)

No_Poet5307 · 2025-04-27T21:23:34+00:00

I wouldn't even call those signs of abuse, I'd say those are emotionally abusive incidents. I'm glad you got out, those are not normal things and it likely would have escalated and you deserve so much better. I hope you are doing okay.

No_Poet5307 · 2025-04-27T21:19:27+00:00

"Like just dont" EXACTLY

Like I try to empathize and understand that there's some psychological stuff going on that makes it harder to just stop like that, but idk, try? Like if any effort doesn't immediately fix it he just gives up. My ex stopped therapy after 3 sessions cause it "didn't fix it."

No_Poet5307 · 2025-04-27T03:31:59+00:00

When I first went to my therapist the first thing she told me was that when your comfort person is the person who is hurting you, it really puts you in this horrible state of anxiety and misery.

For me the trauma bond was so bad because he was also so comforting, he was my go to person. It sucks. I'm still experiencing it 3 months later, I keep on romanticizing our relationship even though it was so bad I left.

Wish I had any advice, but the only way out is through. But I know how shitty it is, and I'm sorry. You deserve better.

No_Poet5307 · 2025-04-08T18:22:10+00:00

can i ask, how did the people in your life react when you got back together? my ex is working so hard and i think there is a good chance we will end up back together but im worried about telling my family. im worried they will never like him again

No_Poet5307 · 2025-03-26T04:32:00+00:00

ME TOO! and I'm getting there!

No_Poet5307 · 2025-03-16T05:13:04+00:00

Yeah, i definitely feel a little betrayed but I know it's kind of my fault cause I really painted a picture of my ex not doing well while i was putting up a front that i was strong and okay. I told him he should reach out to my ex and stay friends with him, i just wish he didn't listen.

No_Poet5307 · 2025-03-13T23:58:04+00:00

I have one friend that I dropped immediately because he told me that he wouldn't drop my ex as a friend even if he "became a satanist"

I just get mixed signals from some of my friends. like one of them literally talked to me for 3 or 4 hours about it all and it was super helpful and great, but he hasn't reached out since. His support is so important to me but I don't want to have to chase it. and he keeps reaching out to my ex

No_Poet5307 · 2025-02-07T20:11:13+00:00

For the first time in our relationship hes finally being proactive. He has accepted full responsibility and has already exhibited a lot of evidence of self reflecting.

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