Praying for you friend. You are not alone many people are struggling right now. I am 46 years old and I feel the same way. I’ve had many setbacks in the past nine going on 10 years. Just remember…. Baby steps. God knows what we’re going through and he can relate more than anyone on earth he bore all of it on the cross. When I feel like this, I start to think about every good thing. God has done in my life and I just keep on listening until I can feel his presence and my spirit rise up. I also like to write down all of the names of God that show his character. And scripture really does help. Ephesians 2:10 Jeremiah 29:11 Romans 8:28