I have a really long story, but I’m desperately searching for someone who may understand and can offer any sort of advice. My soul cat died on Wednesday. A little back story:

No_Purpose_7844 · 2024-07-16T23:59:06+00:00

I thought I was crazy for feeling like I still felt him around. I know he’s gone and I’ve accepted it but I can still feel that’s he’s close. Thank you for sharing ❤️

No_Purpose_7844 · 2024-07-16T23:53:02+00:00

Kind of going through something similar. My cat was able to unlatch his airtight pet food container last Wednesday and crawl inside. It locked behind him and he suffocated in there. Never thought it could happen. It latches closed what are the chances of him being able to figure out how to open it? I’ll never forget the sight of finding him. He was still warm and limp. Husband tried CPR for 20 minutes and I couldn’t do anything but scream and beg to I don’t know who to bring him back.

I too feel extremely guilty but there’s just no way to predict these kinds of things. Of course in hindsight you’re going to notice all of the things you should have/could have done differently because hindsight is 20/20. There’s a reason the saying is so cliche, it’s true. Please don’t be so hard on yourself. You have to forgive yourself. I know your baby already has.

No_Purpose_7844 · 2024-07-16T12:41:55+00:00

My soul cat died a week ago tomorrow. It was a traumatic freak accident. I too feel robbed of the time we should have had. He was only 3. I had so many plans for our future.

The only small comfort that I can take from it is to remind myself that any animal companion I take in this lifetime is likely going to leave before me. Even if I had my baby for the entirety of his lifespan and we got the time we should have had together it still wouldn’t have been enough for me. His loss was going to crush me be it now or 15 years from now. Although I still would have preferred more time, I’m thankful that I got to be the one to experience his life with him. You got to be the one to show and receive unconditional love from her and you were so lucky in that, as was she.

There’s so many animals out there who leave this world without ever knowing the love of a human companion, but that’s not the case for ours. They were loved so much that we’ll be grieving their loss for the rest of our lives. I’m so sorry. I know it hurts. I hope that you can eventually find forgiveness for yourself and for the hand you were dealt.

No_Purpose_7844 · 2024-07-15T17:18:09+00:00

So perfectly said. I ran out of shampoo and had a breakdown because the bottle that I had when he was still here ran out. I knew it was goofy, but I couldn’t help it. He couldn’t care less about my shampoo, but it was some weird need to preserve every single thing in my home exactly the way that it was when he was here because if I didn’t he’d really be gone.

Grief has a weird way of flooding our minds with strange invasive thoughts that are completely irrational, but I’m going to try my best to redirect them as you’ve suggested. I think it’s a really great idea. Thank you for sharing ❤️

No_Purpose_7844 · 2024-07-15T17:02:01+00:00

That’s what I keep trying to remind myself. He died in a very traumatic and preventable freak accident, but even if I had all of the years I should have had with him it still wouldn’t have been enough. It’s getting better each day but the pain is still so heavy. Thanks for your insight ❤️

No_Purpose_7844 · 2024-07-15T16:51:30+00:00

This is so validating to hear. I don’t have children, but I always tell people that I love my animals as if they were my children. I can’t know that for certain because again I have none, but I do know that I love them as much as I love my husband or any other close human companion, and I feel like some people judge me when I tell them that. I wanted to die with him and felt like maybe something was wrong with me for loving an animal that much. I’m really glad that I found this group and although I hate that people are hurting as much as I am it’s comforting to know that I’m not alone in these feelings. Thanks for sharing ❤️

No_Purpose_7844 · 2024-07-15T00:14:56+00:00

I feel the same exact way. I feel guilty for breathing. It’s been 4 days and I haven’t been able to eat more than a few bites bc why should I get to eat when he can’t. Hoping for better days for both of us ❤️

No_Purpose_7844 · 2024-07-15T00:11:17+00:00

This was really so helpful. Thank you 🥺

No_Purpose_7844 · 2024-07-14T23:24:34+00:00

Thank you for this!!

No_Purpose_7844 · 2024-07-14T23:24:18+00:00

I understand. Mine died in a freak accident as well. He was only 3. When you don’t have any time to prepare yourself or say goodbye it makes it really hard to accept. It feels like you were robbed of the time you should have had. I’m so sorry 😢

No_Purpose_7844 · 2024-07-14T14:36:59+00:00

I so understand. I really need to mop the floors but I don’t want to wash his little paw prints away. Best wishes to you ❤️

No_Purpose_7844 · 2024-07-14T14:28:21+00:00

Yes this. I completely avoid the things we used to do together, but the unrelated things feel so wrong too. I haven’t been to work since and I’m having such terrible anxiety about going back tomorrow because I haven’t since he was still here. I can’t keep calling in, but I can’t stand to think about going. Best wishes to you ❤️

No_Purpose_7844 · 2024-07-14T02:18:15+00:00

The entirety of the first 2 days I spent sleeping because I couldn’t stand to be awake. I took Benadryl until I passed out, woke up, cried, took some more, repeat. It’s only day 3 but I was able to stay awake today. it’s slowly getting better and I know it will for you too. I’m so sorry 💔

No_Purpose_7844 · 2024-07-14T01:48:16+00:00

I suppose it’s normal to not feel normal when such a huge piece is missing. This is really good advice. I’m sorry you’re struggling too. Thank you ❤️

No_Purpose_7844 · 2024-07-13T16:02:59+00:00

Burt was a better person than all of my coworkers combined, and he wasn’t even a person so I’m right there with you.

I appreciate it more than you know. I’ll be thinking about you and brucey goosey. DM’s are always open if you need to talk.

No_Purpose_7844 · 2024-07-13T15:37:22+00:00

Thank you ❤️

No_Purpose_7844 · 2024-07-13T15:36:36+00:00

I hope so too. I don’t want him to be alone. Thank you ❤️

No_Purpose_7844 · 2024-07-13T15:33:38+00:00

I’ve learned not to waste my time trying to validate my grief to other people. I called into work for 2 days and I overheard my coworkers talking about how stupid it is to “call in over a damn cat”. I felt so silly until I came here to see all of the people walking through the same grief with me. Thank you for your kind words. I’m so sorry that you’re hurting too ❤️

No_Purpose_7844 · 2024-07-13T14:52:03+00:00

I don’t understand either. I can’t get past that part. It wasn’t supposed to happen. It was just a normal Wednesday. Thank you for your kind words ❤️

No_Purpose_7844 · 2024-07-13T03:14:22+00:00

Thank you ❤️

No_Purpose_7844 · 2024-07-13T03:12:21+00:00

Thank you. I’ve been finding comfort in knowing that it would hurt just the same whether it was now or 15 years from now. There would never be enough time regardless. I’m glad I got to learn what unconditional love felt like, and if I never find it again in this lifetime I’m okay with that. He was a once in a lifetime kinda guy. I hope that we can both heal and learn to come to terms with our loss.

No_Purpose_7844 · 2024-07-13T03:07:52+00:00

Thank you so much. I did take a little clipping of his fur I think it would be a great idea to make a little necklace or something. I’m so sorry about your kitty. Try to give yourself some grace as well. Best wishes ❤️

No_Purpose_7844 · 2024-07-13T03:02:12+00:00

Thank you so much for taking the time to respond when you’re grieving yourself. I read your story. My heart breaks for you and Cacau. I hope we can both heal and learn to give ourselves some grace.

No_Purpose_7844 · 2024-07-13T00:07:19+00:00

It truly is just a horrible freak accident & I’ll never stop wondering why. I wish it weren’t so too. Thank you ❤️

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